Friday, March 19, 2010 // 9:35 PM
so i haven't blogged in ages. but oh well, i am now.
right, it's march already. just finished mocks, thank god! dunno if it went well though. some of it was well. but i thought i'd do better, coz it's kinda the one last shot to prove myself i could handle may. then again i was wrong. and i've got exactly 45 days to get myself fully prepared. how am i gonna get myself to do that, i have no idea, but i'll find a way.
meanwhile, as may is approaching, i try not to focus on the gruesome fact that IB kids' doomsday is soon approaching, i'm just gonna try to focus on what epic shit i'm gonna do after may! well you know what we IBfucked say: the party don't start till may 25th.
and when may 25th gets here we gonna make the roof crumble down.
so here's my list of what i wanna do after may:
1. star wars marathon
the idea: watch the episodes in NUMERICAL ORDER, not the order of when it came out. would be pretty interesting, since usually when you watch movies with sequels, the newer the sequel the better the visual fx. it'll be pretty interesting to see it the other way around, no?
2. crash a wedding
the idea: errr, get free food, wish the bride and groom a long, happy marriage. and leave a note that'll hopefully warm the heart of the couple.
3. movie marathon
the idea: watch ALL the movies showing in the cinema on that day. regardless of the genre or the degree of crappiness. just watch. and eat popcorn. and try not to analyse the literary devices used in the movie.
4. re-read harry potter from sorcerer's stone to deathly hallows
the idea: cherish the one thing that makes me happy ever since i was in fourth grade.
5. cook a three course meal
the idea: hmm, just cook. an appetizer, a main course and a dessert. preferably for dinner. i think it's a good way to refine my cooking skills. hey, i'm gonna need it once i'm outta here. better start now, right?
right, so that's my plan. i so can't wait to do all of it haha. oh meanwhile, got special plans for the summer too!
first, i'm going to egypt. yes, as in land of the pharaoh. and what better way to spend my time there other than be in a CISV camp! woot yeaaah! i'm going there for seminar camp :)
i'm very stoked about it. since one of the things in my life-list is to set foot on the soil of at least one country in every continent in the world. the only one continent left is africa, and i've always dreamed of going there. i just can't believe i'd be able to accomplish that one thing on my life-list at this age.
second, another bali adventure for meeee!! yes a bunch of cisv mates are planning for a backpacking-spirited-but-we'll-be-carrying-suitcases trip around bali. which'll be FUN :)
i so can't wait for all of that.
but gotta get my foot back on the ground now.
two more artworks still waiting to be finished.
*sigh*
Labels: CISV, The Times We Spent on Weekends...
Friday, December 25, 2009 // 11:32 PM
ok so i don't celebrate christmas. but what i know is during this kind of festive holidays you don't want to wound up alone. and i'm so glad that i didn't this year.
i had a real fine christmas night with my cisv lovelies: ray eko inez ariel ardy. not much of them but at least i got to see them after quite a while. especially ardy, who finally flew back home :)
it really feels so glad to be taken into the warm arms of someone dear to you who you haven't seen in a reaaal long time :) it's like finally all the longing you've kept during their absence are finally released from deep inside your gut. it feels great. really great.
we just got together for the classic combination of hanging out activities consisting of having dinner and watching a movie. we watched planet 51, which was slightly hilarious. not that much funny, but it's a feel good movie, as my friend ray puts it. haha very true.
i feel really good today.
nothing like spending time with friends.
hope you all have a blasting christmas with your loved ones. even if you're not doing anything at all christmas-y haha.
cheers everyone!
Labels: CISV, The Times We Spent on Weekends..., Totally Random
Wednesday, July 08, 2009 // 6:01 PM
sometimes i wish that button exist in life. okay, sometimes is an understatement, most of the time, i want to press that button so badly, and not in my ipod and/or itunes.
i just got back from bali yesterday afternoon. on the plane, with a huge hangover and amidst the clouds, i closed my eyes and all i could see was the great times i've spent with my CISV lovelies: daryl, rasti, icha, rena and stevi on that island. i could see vividly the day we went to bebek bengil and ate two plates of crispy duck (yuuumm!). as well as the day we spent the entire day at the beach, getting tattoos, snorkeling, canoeing and taking amazing pictures. and the night when we sat around and opened up to each other, stripping off the black cloth that we've been hiding behind. i recalled the day we went shopping and did some serious bargaining. also the time when we had dinner under the sunset at jimbaran. and i could never forget the day we partied it up real hard, then met other crazy whackjobs who's as messed up as we were, probably even worst, in laota, this awesome porridge place. oh, not to forget when we partied in our bedroom and it got seriously messy and chaotic.
not a day goes by without me laughing my ass off, until tears welled up in my eyes. not of sadness, but of sheer, pure happiness. every single day, down to the last second, was very precious and filled my memory box with even more sweet stuffs :)
on the plane, i wanted to cry. this time, it wasn't happiness, it was sadness. sadness because i couldn't repeat this again. sadness because i'm afraid there are things i regretted during the trip, thank god to this moment i haven't found any (except maybe, i DO wanted to shop a bit more hahaha, classic). sadness because i'm afraid that i couldn't have this again.
at that moment, until now, i so badly want to press that repeat-one button. i want to re-live the 5 days i had on the island, down to the very last second, and repeat it over and over and over again. i know i'd never get bored of it :)
but sadly, i can't. just like every other moments where i had the same feeling.
truly, i didn't know that the trip to bali would be one of those moments where i'd feel this way. but then again, i once watched grey's anatomy and meredith grey said that:
"you don't know the biggest day of your life... not until you're right in the middle of it..."
this may not be the biggest day of my life, but i think it's fragments of the best days i've had in my life. and i truly believe in that quote, because i didn't know bali was gonna be one of those times where i'd desperately want to repeat, until i was in the middle of the trip.
so here's a piece of mind. live your days with hope for the best. it won't always turn out to be the best, so still, expect the worst. but keep in mind to have hope with you at all times. the worst might happen, and with expectation of the worst, you might get at slightly less dissapointed, but with hoping for the best to come, you'd soon forget about the dissapointment and realise that you're in the middle of having one of the best days of your life.
well you see, i'm not at best when i get rather philosophical, i tend to go round and round and a bit cryptic. but i do know you all understand what i'm trying to say.
so philosophies aside, here's some pics from the trip:
hope you've found your best(s)!
<3
Labels: CISV, Thoughtful Thoughts, When Nandra Gets Philosophical
Monday, June 22, 2009 // 7:48 PM
here's a list of how you feel when you're campsick, specifically after this year's proto:
1. you wake up and have the urge to get outside, cross your right arm above your left, sing the cisv song and have flag time.
2. you feel like being thrown to the sky during kiitos after every meal.
3. you feel like dancing to the cha cha slide.
4. you make up robotic dance moves to the beat of the metronome. (I LOVE YOU METRONOMEZ!)
5. you reminisce the times when you dance to nsync's bye bye bye and it was phenomenal.
6. you miss having a lot of people around you and feel horribly alone having dvd marathon in your room.
7. you don't feel like sleeping at 2am because at that time, you're still up eating indomie and the gossip session has just started.
8. you have the sudden urge to get up, jump and do the pony song, purple soup, or little sally walker.
9. you can't sleep before you listen (or sing along) to the songs you usually sing during lullaby.
10. you smile to yourself because of some little thing that reminds you of camp, and no one knows why you're smiling and laughing.
i miss my prototype campers. both the staffs and campers. we worked real hard to achieve what we wanted. there were obstacles along the way, short fuses blown and some tears shed, but it was all worth the while.
i hate the fact that for some of my friends, it would be their last cisv camp. it was hardly mentioned, during camp but i still can't shake off that fact. i hate to think of how different camps would be without them around. i'd hate for them to leave, they've all been such dear friends to me and other CISVers as well :(
i hate saying goodbyes. sometimes i want to press the 'slow down' button so i could linger here in the times when no goodbyes are necessary yet. i really do hate goodbyes. especially this one :'''(
these lovely people have not gone yet so this summer i'm gonna make the best of my time with them. i'm not in to waste a single minute without them ;)
i'd miss you all. you know who you are. it's gonna be hard to let go, but you'd do great out there, i know it :)
BUT, it's not time to mope around yet, let's kick ass this summer and have funnnnn!!
have a crazy summer, everyoneeee!!
Labels: CISV
Saturday, June 20, 2009 // 9:06 PM
as always, cisv camps are indescribable. just got back from proto this afternoon and i'm highly exhausted. despite the fact that there were some things that i thought wasn't supposed to happen happened i still think it was awesome. some things during the camp nearly made me blew up a short fuse, and that, i must say never happened before. during that time the "thing" surpasses all the awesomeness i felt throughout the day.
but now i'm just gonna let it slide. it's shit, i know. but shit happens to everyone, and i find it better to not dwell over it.
so anyways prototype camp was awesomeness. the kids were awesome. our activities were awesome as well. we had so much fun, learned so many things. i think that's what matters most.
as like any other camps, i'm definitely missing it so much.
i miss the post-evaluation late night talks until 2am
i miss the instant noodle + manohara gossip session :p
i miss playing with the jimbe haha
i miss kiitos and pony song
i miss my alays and metronomez
i miss my fellow "baru masuk kayu danau" dancerss hahahah we totally rocked the talent night!
i miss dancing to the cha cha slide
awhh. i miss it all :(
and it also dawned on me that this is practically the last camp for some of my friends who are leaving abroad. i really can't imagine cisv without them actually. not sure if it'd be as much fun. i've known them for the past four years since i'm first introduced to cisv and they brought the fun and energy to our activities. i'd hate for them not to be there with me and the others :(
there's so much to say about this year's camp. but the words won't pour out. so i guess i'll stop right here.
i'm soooooo freakin tired and i have a sexy phelgmy voice haha. so i guess i better drink one of those cough meds and hit the sack. :)
Labels: CISV
Sunday, June 07, 2009 // 10:08 PM
too tired to fill in details. will just put up funny quotes and lists of why it was so much fun (and tiring):
1. naek kereta ke bogor. hayooo, ga pernah kaaan? iya gw jg, baru kemaren pertama kali ehehe.
2. men-charter angkot dari stasiun bogor ke tapos. hayoooo, ga pernah juga kaaan? iya sama gw jg ga pernah yg namanya nge-charter angkot. baru tau kemaren klo itu kendaraan bisa di charter. canggih jg haha.
3. nawar biaya charter-an angkot ditengah kekalutan stasiun bogor. ga pernah jg kaaan? hahaha.
4. naek angkot diisi dengan manusia2 berjumlah 13 yg kalo ngomong volumenya ga bisa dikecilin dikit dengan topik obrolan yang ga mutu pula. i.e. gempar gempor kasus manohara, paris hilton and the likes.
5. selama hampir dua jam menahan kentut di angkot, ternyata kita salah jalan dan ujung2nya masih berada di tengah2 kota bogor.
6. Di dalam angkot yg sumpek ga karuan, dengan perut lapar dan nyasar 'dikit' selama berjam-jam
rene: (baca papan nama toko) toko jam jakarta... ngarang banget sih lo.
all: *roflmao*
7. Masih di dalam angkot. Membicarakan kasus manohara.
stevi: iya bla bla bla ... datuk kadar syah
tidak lama kemudian
nandra: OMAIGAT YA AMPUN GW KIRA LO BILANG TADI DATUK KARDASHIAN!
rena: AHAHHA IYA GW JG!!
nandra: PANTES GW BINGUNG SEJAK KAPAN KARDASHIAN TERLIBAT KASUS MANOHARA
all: *lmao*
8. selama di dalam angkot nan aduhai itu, dengan perut yg keroncongan dan di kocok2 (akibat turbulance dalam angkot) ke-13 manusia di dalamnya sampai2 nyium bau knalpot bus pun dikira bau ayam KFC.
9. diteriakin "BERISIK!!!" dari pengendara sekitar. sumpah yang ini gw ga pernah ngalamin. hahaha. ini berarti keberisikan kita udh ngalahin klakson2 mobil dan angkutan lain yg jg terjebak kemacetan. haha gara2 kita jadi tambah senewen kali ye??
10. merasa betapa indahnya udara segar dan bulan di langit setelah berjam-jam perjalanan dengan angkot tercinta tsb.
11. the blessings in disguise dari perjalanan yang teragak laknat ini seperti:
11.1. ternyata mobil livina, yg udah bagus masih aja sering gw komplain gara2 sempit, itu jauh lebih baik dari angkot. lantas mengapa gw sering komplaaain?
11.2. walaupun kita terjebak ditengah2 kemacetan di kendaraan ajaib pula, apparently, gw lebih mengenal teman2 staff proto gw dengan lebih baik. (walaupun mungkin tentang hal2 yg tidak terlalu baik haha)
11.3. ternyata disaat-saat penderitaan, gw dan teman2 yg lain masih bisa ketawa jg.
12. ternyata banyak hal-hal yg gw anggap gampang dan sepele, menjadi hal yang teramat sangat susah dan gak berhasil gw lakukan.
13. mau nyalain api unggun pake lilin dua biji aja susah banget haha.
14. 'gaya anjing' dalam berenang itu kalau dipraktekin seperti anjing beneran adalah hal yang sangat SALAH. hahhahaha.
15. shampo and conditioner herbal essences perih banget di mata walopun wangi ehehe. thank you rena for letting us use finish your shampoo!
16. kata gabah yang disalahgunakan oleh seorang ardy winoto haha. contoh:
"gabah itu lhooo klo gw nanya, 'jalan yuk!' trus lo jawab, 'gabah!" (maksudnya GA AH!)
"gabah itu kalo misalnya si rena jatoh, 'gabah'!" (maksudnya gawat -.-")
note: itu baru dua dari sekian banyak penyalahgunaan kata gabah. kalo semakin gw terusin semakin ga jelas, ntar orang bakal bilang gabah beneran kalo si rena jatoh haha.
to conclude,
prototype camp 2009 would be as much fun if we put our whole heart and spirit into it. :)
i so can't wait!
Labels: CISV, Memories too beautiful too erase..., The Times We Spent on Weekends...
Sunday, September 21, 2008 // 9:48 PM
so today's international peace day a.k.a peace one day.
jeremy menginginkan satu hari saja dimana semua orang diseluruh dunia tidak bertengkar. seluruh senjata api diletakkan di tanah begitu saja. tidak ada satu peluru pun yang keluar dari moncong sebuah AK-47 dan melukai seseorang. a global ceasefire day. wild, bukan?
banyak orang yang tidak percaya dengan jeremy gilley. banyak yang tidak mendukung impiannya. menurut mereka itu tidak mungkin terjadi. hanya utopia belaka. mereka bahkan mengusulkan pada jeremy untuk berhenti saja, toh tidak mungkin terjadi.
siapa dia bisa-bisanya menyuruh orang untuk berhenti berperang? dia tidak punya kuasa politik yang besar. jeremy gilley hanyalah salah satu dari kita. yang memiliki impian yang tinggi. impian yang indah untuk segala umat manusia di bumi. impiannya adalah impian semua orang.
perdamaian.
tapi kenapa banyak yang menentang? karena mereka tidak percaya. tapi jeremy gilley percaya. ia percaya bahwa semua orang dapat membuat perubahan.
perubahan itu harus dimulai dari diri kita. mungkin kalian semua bosan mendengar kata-kata itu. tapi itulah kenyataannya. kalau bukan kita siapa lagi? tapi jelas, akan susah bagi kita untuk membuat perubahan sendiri. kita pasti butuh sokongan dari orang lain, bukan? jeremy gilley jelas tidak berjuang demi perubahan sendiri, ia didukung teman-teman dan keluarganya. tapi bukan berarti kita tidak bisa membuat perubahan.
jeremy gilley memulai petisi untuk mendeklarasikan tanggal 21 september sebagai hari perdamaian sedunia pada tahun 1998. pada tanggal 7 september 2001, ia berhasil membuat impiannya terkabul. united nations general assembly membuat sebuah resolusi, disponsori oleh pemerintah costa rica dan uk -- secara formal mendeklarasikan tanggal 21 september, sebagai hari anti-kekerasan dan global ceasefire -- UN international peace day.
happily ever after? not quite. memang, jeremy gilley berhasil membuat hari perdamaian sedunia. but the global ceasefire part... masih belum tercapai. tapi, hey, itu tidak aku lihat sebagai kegagalan. karena pada detik saat tulisan ini dibuat, di belahan bumi yang lain, banyak orang yang memperingati hari ini. dan itu sudah cukup membuat mr. gilley bangga.
di inggris, jeremy gilley dan teman-teman selebritisnya sedang mengadakan konser. mungkin di itali sekarang, sekelompok remaja sedang berpesta, menggabungkan teman-temannya yang mungkin beda latar belakang (?) untuk berkumpul dan bersenang-senang -- melupakan perbedaan mereka. mungkin seseorang di amerika sana sedang meminta maaf pada temannya karena ia telah menghilangkan barang milik temannya itu? sepele memang, tapi meminta maaf bisa dibilang mempromosikan perdamaian, kan?
karena, face it, negara-negara semua lagi perang karena pada nggak mau minta maaf, kan? :)
hari ini gw udah mengadakan acara bersama teman-teman CISV gw untuk memperingati peace day. tadi kita masak untuk buka puasa bersama, dilanjutkan dengan menonton film pendek bertemakan perdamaian untuk didiskusikan bersama. yang membuat acara ini spesial adalah gw dan temen-temen CISVers yang lain mengajak anak-anak seumuran kita, yang tidak begitu berkecukupan seperti kita. jadi, walaupun acara yang kita adakan tidak begitu 'wah' tapi gw seneng banget, bisa berbagi kebahagiaan, pendapat dan pengalaman dengan anak-anak yang nggak seberuntung gw. and sharing all this, has made this one hell of a peace day!
now, friends! peace day akan berakhir beberapa jam lagi. tapi belum telat kok, untuk melakukan sesuatu untuk mencapai perdamaian. lagian, kalau ingin berbuat sesuatu untuk perdamaian, nggak harus pada tanggal 21 september, kok. kapan aja bisa, kan?
to close this, gw cuman pengen ambil intisari dari post hari ini. yaitu:
1. change is possible. if it's not us, then who?
2. if someone turn you down, what the heck?! go on with it! fight for something you believe in till the end!
3. strive and persevere.
4. there is no way to peace, peace is the only way (inspired by the amazing peace one day tshirt hahahaha). so start spreading the love and peace, people! anytime, anywhere, to anyone!
5. thanks for reading! :)
peace, love and hugs!
nandra~
Labels: CISV, Thoughtful Thoughts
