Saturday, May 29, 2010 // 9:00 PM
so it's the 29th of may. the day this blog turns four years old. so to celebrate such day, i have a special quote:
"Eventually over time, we all become our own doppelgangers. Just completely different people who happens to look like us."
the above quote is from episode 24 of season five of how i met your mother. and i think that quote pretty much explains what change really is.
you see, changes are indicators to how far we have grown. and apparently, this blog, as i've mentioned numerous times before, is an archive of my changes. i started this when i was middle school. i had no clue what the international baccalaureate is, or how to spell baccalaureate for that matter. i would have never thought of creating a club at school which aims at preserving traditional cultures. years ago, i don't know the lyrics to saman chants. i didn't know i was going to enroll myself in a media school in the UK. i never knew i could write a 4000 word essay, or fussed about what truth really is.
years ago i couldn't care less about world peace, but now i'm in an organization, which believes that myself and other youths out there are the main vehicles to bring peace into this world. i didn't know i was going to be in cisv and accumulate friends from different corners of the world.
back when i was in the 8th grade, i imagined that i'll be going to prom with that one particular guy that makes my stomach all a-flutter. now, i couldn't care less about such guy, because i'm going with one of my best friends and i know we're going to have a good time.
you see, i have become a whole different person. my viewpoint about a lot of things changed. i took risks along the way, fell down, scraped my knee and managed to scruff off the dust. i gathered up courage and did things i have never thought i would have done four years ago.
aside from that, i graduated high school the day before yesterday. and i have never quite realised how much i've accomplished. i question a lot in this blog about what 'mark' am i gonna leave in this world. what significant thing i'm going to do for a change. i've always strived for that, and for it i call myself a perfectionist. but on may 27 2010, i achieved it.
i left a so-called 'mark' alright. i survived IB, albeit not knowing the results yet, but i got through it, along with 61 other people from my batch. i won four awards that night. each one for economics, theory of knowledge (i know, right, go freakin' figure haha), a 3rd honourable mention and for innovation & enterprise. and my year 11 culturific kids gave me a large bouquet of flowers, on behalf of the seniors.
i know i might sound rather bragging, but i'm proud of what i've achieved. i've reached one of my goals in life and it really felt very accomplishing. you see, i never thought i'd actually reached this point, make all these changes and learned all these fascinating new things.
the way i look at it, it's like i am a doppelganger of my past self. i can't exactly mention a certain post that proves it but i know i've changed. mostly for the better (i hope). but i've grown up now, to a certain point at least. i'm a high school graduate, who will be moving out of her home off to another country in september.
i still can't believe i've made it this far. i have never imagined what kind of person i'd be once i've graduated. but here i am. about to go on to another journey, as a young adult.
so, i think the moment is right.
today is the fourth anniversary of my blog.
and this will be my very last blog post.
i'll continue writing, of course. daily ramblings and all. but not here.
this blog has been a witness of my journey. of how i've grown from a middle school kid to a high school graduate.
so well then.
goodbye, dear blog :)
i'm glad i've continued to write here for it has become a record of, well me.
so i'm nandra.
over and out.
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