Wednesday, February 24, 2010 // 9:02 PM
"Go cut me down and I'm still gon grow"
IB's been pissing all over my life lately. it's like it'll never end. essays after essays just keep coming after me on a fuckin wild goose chase. and my procrastination habit ain't getting any better either, so that adds to the endless cycle of frustration.
but ya know what.
i should stop whining, and please do kindly remind me to, i tend to forget. coz it'll be over soon and hopefully i'll understand what the benefit is from enduring 2 years of hell. and right after i aced those may 2010 exam papers imma have epic plans that needs to be put into action. epic shit that'll be the pinnacle of my young life hopefully. i'll reveal those so-called epic crazy plans sometime later though.
right now i gotta focus on the remaining shits i gotta do before i could end this thing. oh btw, i've gotten 5 conditional offers from UK universities. so at least a part of myself can take a breather. at least university apps are done. now what i gotta do is live up to that predicted grade of mine, and ace that 36 i need to get into cardiff.
yes, they asked for a 36 and i just found out today and yes it was shocking. i really wanna get it there, it's the top media school, according to the good university guide. so, 36 it is.
please tell me i can get thru this?
in the mean time, i have a date with cas paperworks (yes, beurocracy is a biatch bby), media option written task and development econs to study for.
what am i doingggg??? AGH
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Tuesday, February 16, 2010 // 11:59 PM
Someone you haven't even met yet is wondering what it'd be like to know someone like you.
And I can't wait to finally meet you :)
Sunday, February 14, 2010 // 7:12 PM
so here's two ways of looking at valentine's day
the pessimist way: the day where mr. al capone decided to shoot 4 of his rivals dead.
the optimist way: the day to spread some love, buy em flowers chocolates etc.
until around half an hour ago i've looked at it the pessimist way. heck i don't even realised it was valentine's day until i watched the movie yesterday. so i didn't really care about today, it was just like any other sunday, where i am reminded (in the hard way) that i have school again tomorrow and i better get those stupid homeworks done fast or else. so far, today all i've done was continued working on my artwork, studied math, watched the so you think you can dance marathon, that's it. no candlelight dinner or any of those cheesy romantic shit.
i've been in a bit of an ugly mood today, probably from the lack of sleep i've had lately and other shitty things. and when i my mood gets ugly i started to take it out on other people. nope. i have not been the most loving person in the most loving day.
but hey, i'm sorry for that, coz by that time it hasn't hit me yet. the fact that i have the most loving people around me and i love them too. i may not realise that every single minute of the day but i know i do. because really, without them i couldn't find the oxygen i need to breathe.
i really can't write everyone's name here on this post. but you know who you guys are. if you ever felt like you've been hanging around my life for quite a while, you are most definitely loved by me. each in every different way, but it still is love.
i'm sorry if i didn't give anyone any chocolates, roses, complementary dinners or whatever, all i could try to do is give the best of myself to everyone. and hate as less as possible :)
i love you.
-nandra
Friday, February 05, 2010 // 2:27 PM
so there you go. it's my birthday today and i'm 17. which is supposedly a big deal. coz i get my ID and i'm legally an adult. i suppose. i didn't wake up with some revelation though, i woke up because my grandmother called me and only then i realised i just grew another year older.
can't believe another year went down the drain.
*sigh*
so anyways my mom's convince i'm "all grown up now". meh, i snide at the commentary, i don't feel so grown up just yet. sorry mom :/ i love you though :)
but hey here's an interesting thing, few days ago in english class we were supposed to finish a sentence: "growing up is..."
truly at that moment everything pop up in my head simultaneously i don't know how to finish that sentence. but amongst them is a line to the ataris' in this diary:
being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up.
so i guess that says it all. growing up has been fun. and i couldn't have done it without my friends.
and i think now i know what growing up is all about, it's about
not doing crazy epic shit(s)...
alone.
you see, those crazy epic shit(s) can be basically anything. it can be
getting lost in the streets of singapore, dancing to the beat of a metronome, spending (literally) 10 hours straight in dufan, getting into an angkot with 13 people and spend 2 hours circling bogor in it, missing a bus stop and ended up at the changi airport, get a picture taken with that cute guy from one of your favorite bands, dance till dawn in bali, spend an amazing 3 weeks in another land with people you barely knew at the beginning but turn out to be the most amazing people ever (and being detached from technology in the process :D ), going out to the same mall in the same week just to get together, spending hours stalking bands on youtube, throwing surprises on birthdays, playing pool even when you know full well you suck at it but you do it anyways, finishing 30 polaroid films in one night, going to that awesome concert, even......... getting through IB.
yes, i do consider getting through IB as crazy epic shit.
you know what all, it comes down to is doing it with your friends.
because it won't be epic at all without them by your side.
so i guess i'll end this post here :)
thank you for the birthday wishes on twitter, facebook, txt msgs etc. i feel so loved and blessed :)
i love you all <3
