Wednesday, July 29, 2009 // 8:34 PM
exactly.
i'm home and just started school this morning.
my ass is severely kicked by schoolworks. i just got in and i got a math quiz tomorrow.
yays now all i gotta do is study a whole chapter about 3D vectors.
which by the way, i know nothing of.
yay me.
i've gotta get myself together and get through this. come on, nandra. positive affirmation!
YES WE FREAKIN' CAN!
well as the beatles' would put it.
"I get by with a little help from my friends."
oh i so hope that's true.
:)
Labels: Totally Random
Thursday, July 23, 2009 // 1:17 AM
hello from amsterdam!
yes, i'm in the capital of the country that used to colonized us for hundreds of years. apparently the country's been awesome. come to think of it, it problly prospered to the way it is now after years of taking away other people's freedom.
now, how bout that, huh?
however, i still think this country's awesome. and i apparently prefer rotterdam than amsterdam. here places and houses are soooo packed. some of the streets are small as well, one-laned for cars. it's got these little lovely shops and cafes though.
and since it's summer, my energy's still on full blast until sundown, which is aroun 10pm :p
so i'm still up for roaming around town until nightfall, though places are closed already. hargh. i missed shopping until late into the night. shops here open until 6pm only aaargh.
speaking of which.
I FUCKING MISS MY HUMANS BACK HOME!
yes, i'm homesick. well more like peoplesick, coz i miss my friends back home :(
they've started senior year without me :(((
it's crazy, i know but i apparently miss going to school and ranting over our IB-fucked miseries.
AWH GOD, I MISS YOU GUUUUYYSSS :((
ohh i heard about the bombings back home. i was in france when i heard about it and i was in complete total shock. i stood in front of the tv with my jaw gawking open, not quite sure if i just read the right words under the breaking news banner.
i can't believe it happened again. it's been years since such attacks happen and it's been quite peaceful. and apparently tourism is back up and running again in indonesia, giving life to those in the tourism sector.
i really don't understand what is in the mind of those terrorist. what good would it do them aside from having people's lives lost. they think life is something that people can just throw away.
well it's not.
and it's not just death that would end someone's life. this tragedy would scar them forever.
apparently, a friend of my aunt's, who lives here in netherlands, was among those who were the victims of the bombing. he did not pass away, but he suffered severe damage to his leg and had to have it amputated.
imagine how such thing would alter someone's life completely. i don't know this person, but i know his life would most probably not be the same again.
well, i ended this with a sombre note. but it is a tragedy and my condolensces goes to those whose loved ones are lost or scarred from the bombing.
anyways, i suppose i'm gonna go nooooww.
gonna go meet ode tomorroooooww!!
yeaaahh, so stoked! bumped into her few days ago in den haag and can't wait to spend the whole day with her! :)
good night from amsterdam, my loves :)
Monday, July 13, 2009 // 12:41 AM
one of the most-hated word in the english language for me is
goodbye. and i hate it even more that i have to say it to so many people in such an early time. i really didn't think i'd come to the time were people would leave and i'd have to utter goodbye to them. so far i haven't quite say it yet but i don't want to even when the time comes...
help me get through this please?
before i'd have to say goodbye to you?
Labels: Thoughtful Thoughts, Totally Random
Friday, July 10, 2009 // 10:49 PM
...
I wish I was your favourite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style
I wish you couldn't figure me out
But you always wanna know what I was about
I wish you'd hold my hand
When I was upset
I wish you'd never forget
The look on my face when we first met
I wish you had a favourite beauty spot
That you loved secretly
'Cause it was on a hidden bit
That nobody else could see
Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars,
Actually I meant three
I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep
Look, all I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
...
Kate Nash - Nicest Thing
is it too much to ask?
Labels: Totally Random
Wednesday, July 08, 2009 // 6:01 PM
sometimes i wish that button exist in life. okay, sometimes is an understatement, most of the time, i want to press that button so badly, and not in my ipod and/or itunes.
i just got back from bali yesterday afternoon. on the plane, with a huge hangover and amidst the clouds, i closed my eyes and all i could see was the great times i've spent with my CISV lovelies: daryl, rasti, icha, rena and stevi on that island. i could see vividly the day we went to bebek bengil and ate two plates of crispy duck (yuuumm!). as well as the day we spent the entire day at the beach, getting tattoos, snorkeling, canoeing and taking amazing pictures. and the night when we sat around and opened up to each other, stripping off the black cloth that we've been hiding behind. i recalled the day we went shopping and did some serious bargaining. also the time when we had dinner under the sunset at jimbaran. and i could never forget the day we partied it up real hard, then met other crazy whackjobs who's as messed up as we were, probably even worst, in laota, this awesome porridge place. oh, not to forget when we partied in our bedroom and it got seriously messy and chaotic.
not a day goes by without me laughing my ass off, until tears welled up in my eyes. not of sadness, but of sheer, pure happiness. every single day, down to the last second, was very precious and filled my memory box with even more sweet stuffs :)
on the plane, i wanted to cry. this time, it wasn't happiness, it was sadness. sadness because i couldn't repeat this again. sadness because i'm afraid there are things i regretted during the trip, thank god to this moment i haven't found any (except maybe, i DO wanted to shop a bit more hahaha, classic). sadness because i'm afraid that i couldn't have this again.
at that moment, until now, i so badly want to press that repeat-one button. i want to re-live the 5 days i had on the island, down to the very last second, and repeat it over and over and over again. i know i'd never get bored of it :)
but sadly, i can't. just like every other moments where i had the same feeling.
truly, i didn't know that the trip to bali would be one of those moments where i'd feel this way. but then again, i once watched grey's anatomy and meredith grey said that:
"you don't know the biggest day of your life... not until you're right in the middle of it..."
this may not be the biggest day of my life, but i think it's fragments of the best days i've had in my life. and i truly believe in that quote, because i didn't know bali was gonna be one of those times where i'd desperately want to repeat, until i was in the middle of the trip.
so here's a piece of mind. live your days with hope for the best. it won't always turn out to be the best, so still, expect the worst. but keep in mind to have hope with you at all times. the worst might happen, and with expectation of the worst, you might get at slightly less dissapointed, but with hoping for the best to come, you'd soon forget about the dissapointment and realise that you're in the middle of having one of the best days of your life.
well you see, i'm not at best when i get rather philosophical, i tend to go round and round and a bit cryptic. but i do know you all understand what i'm trying to say.
so philosophies aside, here's some pics from the trip:
hope you've found your best(s)!
<3
Labels: CISV, Thoughtful Thoughts, When Nandra Gets Philosophical
