it's nandra. they also call her nashz, the history of such name is way too long to elaborate in this little space. she's seventeen. she's a she. she lives a typical metropolitan lifestyle in the capital of Indonesia. she's currently in her senior year of high school, enduring the second and last year of IB Diploma Programme that's totally ruining her life slowly.
but she thinks the whole suffering would give her some sort of advantage in the (scarily) near future. she's a CISVer and lovin' every bit of it. oh, she also very much enjoys mango juice, she'd even prefer it than OJ haha. and while we're at it, yes, she might be random from time to time. she wishes you'd be quite patient about it. :)
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novels by J.K Rowling, Judy Blume, Melissa de la Cruz & Sitta Karina
i stumbled upon a friend's tweet today when i was procrastinating from my extended essay. it was a link to youtube and i had no idea that i was about to be inspired:
for the past hour i've been pondering over my EE. i was desperately stuck. every thought that came up to my head was "oh god, this is hopeless" or "i'm so fuckin' screwed" or "how am i ever going to get through this?!!" and the likes. oh, as for the last one, i've been asking myself that question for the past year, amidst the craziness of IB.
so yeah. i was procrastinating. and hopeless, i thought that "A" i had projected to get on EE was nothing but a distant dream. i thought that i'm just gonna screw this and not even try to achive my target.
but then i saw that above video and it struck me. how on earth could i ever have that thought? to give up. it seriously made me feel so stupid to even think to give up.
Nick Vujicic said in that video, "If I fail, I try again, and again, and again..." then he asked, "If YOU fail, are YOU going to try again?"
as if he projected that question to me, i tried to find an answer. all this time, i think i've shook my head towards that question. but this time, i think i'm gonna nod. i'm gonna try again, as screwed up as it'll turn out to be. it's better than not trying, i suppose, because if i didn't, i wouldn't know how to not fail, wouldn't i?
so, really guys, what matters is how we're gonna finish all this. right now my top priority is to pass IB, with flying colours, God willing. everyday i grunt and curse about how things are just so overwhelming and i thought of just giving up. i think i should stop that. i should just do it, and if in the course i did fail, then i suppose i'll just have to try again.
and again.
and again.
and again.
i'm no motivational speaker, but i do get inspired from time to time. i'm writing this post just to pass that on. sooo, please do play the video and ponder upon it for a little while. meanwhile, i've got my EE to complete until at least 3000 words which will be checked in... oops, 1.5 hours. :p
yes, people. it's lebaran. minal aidin wal fa idzin. maafkanlah segala kekhilafan gw selama ini. :)) hehe pas banget yah hari maaf2an ini jatuhnya sama kayak international peace day. hope that in away it helps create peace. at least in my immediate environment.
hmm, i don't have much to say, really. dunno why. but, hey guess what. as much as i hate new moon, the trailer is actually a bomb.
and i hate to break it to you, but it seems like twilight's werewolves looks much better than harry potter's :/ yeah breaks my heart to say that in some way twilight trumps harry potter. but only in the werewolves part. in other ways, harry potter trumps twilight's ass! wizards > vampires hahaha. yeah i get sentimental when people compare harry potter to twilight. saying that twilight is the next harry potter and shit. well it's not. nothing would be as legendary as harry potter and that's that. it's written. haha
so anyways enough about that. despite the fact i don't really like the twilight series especially new moon. i think i'll watch it anyways. just because taylor lautner is daaaaymnn HAWT! i sound like a fangirlie. but wth.
well enough random stuffs, people. imma go enjoy my term break. before i have to work on EE tomorrow. i know right, ib took away my right to leisure. harrghh. will continue and enjoy dee's perahu kertas. i just bought it and it's been awesome so far. i am so in love with kugy and keenan :)
oright enough is enough. i dont need to waste anymore of your time reading this godforsaken random post. enjoyy your break dear ones :)
i want to update my blog. thanks for the plethora of works dumped on me i haven't updated much. but i don't feel like paragraph update, i feel like lists updates. so here goes:
1. today was first day of term tests. english a2 hl in the morning = 2 hours of non-stop commentary writing.
2. followed by chemistry like, umm, say 10 minutes after??!! wtf, i didn't have time to revise. ()&*(#@!@#$ did quite ok i hope. past papers questions i did came up, so i hope that'll boosts up my score a little bit.
3. i just found out about the whole kanye-ruining-tayswift's-big-moment stunt in the VMA. wtf, kanyeeee???!! dudeee, this girl deserves it, aight? that's like, BIG for a 19-year-old to get to where tay's at now. stop being such an ass. God, he is practically one of my favorite hip hop artist, considering i don't like hip hop too much. but his being a jackass to tayswift in live tv was just horrendous. sorry, but you've lost my respect and other people out there, kanye.
4. i have TOK presentation tomorrow. haven't worked on polishing it until now. oh, well.
5. oh, on friday, i broke my record of going home the latest from school because of academic-related things. i went home from school at 8.30pm last friday, working on my friggin' art portfolio. fucktaaaaard!!
6. I MUST NOT PROCRASTINATE ON ART PORTFOLIO EVERR EVERR AGAIN! the consequences are way too big if i do.
7. i can't wait for the term tests to end so i can go out and KARAOKE! (best remedy after tests, i must say) :)
8. lebaran soon. stoked! :)
yupp, so that's a random list of what's been going on in my life. not that much of your interest, huh?? i don't blame you :p
just got back from my third farewell dinner in less than a month. tonight's was ariani's. one of my closest high school friend. she's leaving for seattle tomorrow.
i had fun. i mean, serious fun. i don't think i ever laughed so hard in the past few days. i mean it. all the stupidities and loudness was the best i've had in days. i assure you the waiters and waitresses are probably sick of hearing us laugh from the moment the restaurant was fully booked until it's very empty. they'd probably want to kick us out, deep down inside.
you see, i seldom cry during farewells. instead of having a gloomy moment, i usually make the best of my last night with my friends by having serious, crazy fun.
but then it'd hit me once i'm on my way home and on my own. i'd get this empty, sinking feeling inside of me and asphyxiation. i really can't think of having equally great fun without them around. i couldn't bear to think that i probably won't see ariani for another two years.
as much as i wanted to cry, i usually couldn't. it's like there's something stuck in me that i wanted to let out, but i can't. i'm not quite sure why, though.
but just now i did. it's not like i sobbed, but i cried coz as i wrote this various images of the times we've spent with each other since we first met, all the highs and lows played like a movie.
i feel really crappy now. i hate goodbyes and i'm so sick of it lately. i really don't want to have another one soon. :((
nevertheless, i'm really happy for them and wish them the best of luck out there. i know they'll rock it abroad and do great out there.
i wanna blog just because i feel like it. no IB shitz are gonna stop me from doing so, ever and that's that.
so anyways me wanna make reviews for today yayerz.
this time it's fooooor:
Along for the Ride by Sarah Dessen
yes, ladies and germz. i finally finally read dessen's latest book. though my dad bought it for me in spore, but apparently there's some copies here in kinokuniya so... let's move on shall we not?
Along for the Ride tells the story of Auden an insomniac, academically driven girl. all her life, she is practically an adult, even when she's still so young. as such, Auden missed out a lot on social life in high school since she's always pushed to be driven and focused. there's a reason behind that though. in sophomore year, her parents divorced. and it was preceded by loud arguments, in which at some point she couldn't take anymore. so she seeks silence and solace in Ray's diner -- all through the night until sunrise. what does she do there? she mostly studies. but when she chose to go visit her dad and his new wife, Heidi, and their newborn Thisbe, everything will change for her, even when her mom insisted to her otherwise. in Colby, Auden will learn a lot of second chance, with the help of Eli -- fellow insomniac BMX rider -- and various other people she met in Colby.
as like any other sarah dessen book, you'd always learn about some little piece of life. this book is all about second (or more) chances, possible changes and "getting back on the bike". truly, one of the first impressions i get about Auden was "wow, she clearly has no life in high school". all that studying was way too much and i really don't think that anyone could be like that haha. but it made me realise how lucky i am to have many friends and existing social life haha.
one of the most important thing i learned from the book is that, as cheese and redundant as it may sound, it really doesn't matter how many times you've fallen, what matters is getting back up and move on again. and that, really, it is not worth anything to be a quitter. it really doesn't matter that you've scraped your knee against the asphalt for so many times, what matters is that you've tried and dust off the rubble of yourself as you got up again. because, really, you'd never know until you actually tried. Auden at first never tried to make up for what she missed back in high school, because she's afraid she can't, but hey, she didn't know it herself until she actually tried.
however, i think that somehow the plot progresses a bit... slower than dessen's previous books. Auden's transformation is relatively slow, but then again, maybe it takes a while to change. but it's still a marvelous masterpiece by dessen.
anyways, i make lame reviews haha. go get the book now if you're interested it's really worth the read :)
"You don't want the best of times to be just one, forever. You'd want a lot of bests of times, each one topping the other."
Hollis West in Along for the Ride by Sarah Dessen :)
