Tuesday, March 31, 2009 // 11:19 PM
i feel all wrong. really just things i do seems to be wrong. and things i don't do is even more wrong. i feel rather emo today. not really knowing why.
i want to write something. i gotta write something. it's like an impulse. man, i dont know what i'm talking about.
but hey here's something. see mr. joel made us do freewriting for homework. and i came up with this sentence at the very last minute of freewriting today:
what would you say/write/do to someone if you only have one minute to do so?
or something i like that i don't quite recall. well anyways, it got me thinking. first i thought of one person that pops into my head. and thought about that question i pose to, well, no one actually, it's freewriting. but i gathered up the things i might say to that particular someone. as it turns out it was a lot, i really don't know if one minute was enough to say the whole thing i wanted to say.
but i wonder whether it is possible to narrow down all your thoughts of someone in a minute. i think in some way it is possible. just get straight to the point. explain later. hmm.
things is getting interesing, really. you know, lately i've seen websites that is actually social experiments. like
twistori or
wefeelfine. they gather up keywords that describes about how people feels. in the case of twistori, they pull out tweets from twitter containing keywords such as feel, love, hate, wish etc and stream it to the site. which results to continuous streams of feelings and loves and hates and wishes. rather interesting. though i sometimes find that it's kind of disturbing one's privacy, though the tweets are anonymous.
hmm, i'm seriously thinking about having movements like that. wouldn't want to call it social experiments, though it could fall into such category. i'd like to give someone one minute to say/write/do something for others and see what they could come up with. just one minute. i think it's rather interesting.
i mean i'm sure that in one minute, with probably not so many words, a lot can be said. after all, it all comes down to the meaning of it all, right?
well guess what people, i might even consider this as freewriting haha. 'coz i feel like i've been talking nonsense this entire post. but hey, if you do have any comments about this whole one minute idea, share it with me, puh-leasseee? i'd love to see what you think.
it's late.
nearly midnight. don't wanna be sleep deprived anymore haha.
gnite. :p
Labels: Thoughtful Thoughts, Totally Random
Thursday, March 26, 2009 // 9:59 PM
hey guess what. i pushed myself to do my EE. my supervisor told me to just do freewriting excercises. freewriting sounds rather fun actually. it's like, no pressure, just write what you have in your head. even if it means you're annoyed with the heat or the static buzz from the study lamp.
but.
being the lazyfuck i am, i'm still to damn lazy to do it.
AGH.
and my mom's been nagging about me not doing my EE so i made myself do it.
first attempt sucks though. but second attempt was superb.
oh i actually turned of my wi-fi.
i know right. i was that desperate. i was determined to at least have a page or three paragraphs. and guess what.
i managed to type up 792 words. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH *evil laugh.
insipid really, 792 words and i'm already proud. the negative me is shouting "YOU STILL GOT 3208 WORDS TO GO YOU DUMBASS!!!"
well i don't HAVE to make exactly 3208 more, but approximately that much.
yeah, well i'm still proud of myself. at least i did SOMETHING and refrained from procastinating. HA!
hmm. wat else happened today?
oh i went to bogor. had culinary travel (well sort of). and i nearly died from my dad's its-really-not-funny-but-it's-rather-stupid-so-you'll-laugh-anyways jokes. i mean seriously, i have had ENOUGH. hahahha. but i love how my dad makes me laugh. :)
here's one of the things he said:
me: yah, nasi buceng apaan sih?
dad: itu... nasi bumbu eceng.
me: HA? ECENG? eceng apaan?
dad: eceng gondok. *lol
me: HA? OMAIGAT TOLONG. *dies
no of course i didn't believe him. duh.
well hari kejepit besok tman-tmanku yang ga liburan (mwahahahahahahhaha), bolos gih sono. nikmatilah harpitnas ini. cabut ayo cabut! haha contoh yang ga bener nih. oh well gw libur ini hahah.
oh oh gw bsk mo masak sm gino. wuuuuu~
akhirnya masak juga itu bahan2 udah nginep di lmari es dari jaman kapan tau HAHA.
Labels: High School Remedies, Monotonous yet Colourful Days, Quote(s) a.k.a Wall of Shame
Monday, March 23, 2009 // 11:21 PM
i just had a major tearjerker moment with the movie Marley & Me. i cried so bad. to a point where now my nose is entirely blocked and i was actually sobbing. it's so saaaadd. i don't think any movie has made me cry this bad. aawh poor Marley :'( and it kinda reminds me of someone quite special. can't help but smile as well.
hmm. i haven't written for a while. another week of term break holiday. oo yeay. what to do i wonder. had craptarded moment with a few of my friends karaoke-ing, which was fun. i miss that.
oh well. i'm gonna crash. all this crying is making me sleepy haha.
good night! :)
Friday, March 13, 2009 // 8:47 PM
yeah. it's last day of term three and i'm stoked stoked stoked. i knoooow, there's still much to do. start EE, CAS reflections, group 4 project (in BALI! HAH!) and start art researches for my next project.
but nevertheless, there's still a sense of relief. i mean, at least i won't have to go on these crazy routines everyday. classes, lectures, etc etc. i'd at least would have some time in bali to laze around under the sun and take pictures. and just be around my friends acting retarded. yeah so stoked for that haha.
anyways. since it's the last day of term three, (also friday the 13th, how ironic). i felt greatly awesome today. i finished things. like my artwork for once. yes, my cigarette smoker fiona is finally done (i.e. dead). i put up her shot up lungs already with cigarettes and all (which mr. boy told me to spray with perfume. and i haven't. uh oh. if anyone's coming to do art tmrw, please do spray some haha. fiona smells like crap :D ). so yeah. i could finally take that out of the way. stayed until five today and finished it. it's creepy working late at school, really. eeegh.
but anyways. right after that i went to pancious to have early dinner with gino, agnes and cavin. and we talked and ate and indulged on guilty pleasures hahaha. oh not mention being stupid. in front of public. which is all the more stupid. it's really nice, just eating out being high school kids. people were staring at us at times because we laughed to hard. not that we care much hahaha. we were just enjoying our time. i'd like to do that more. hanging out, being stupid, talking nonsense haha.
i realized today how much i love high school. despite the whole IB shits we're all going through, i love every minute of it. i mean, my only choice if i don't go through IB is going to college, take foundation classes. but one of the main reason why i stick with IB, although it's taking over our lives slowly, is because it's high school. and i want to graduate as a high school student. not as foundation studies/college student. there's just that thing about high school that'll always make you smile, and at times think that our ruthless endavour through whatever is worth it. i won't give it up for anything. even if it means less rigorous exams and prerequisites demanded by IB. there won't be any way any one could drag me out of high school.
it's too precious. :)
so well anyways guys, it's friday night. it's my movie marathon night. although there probably won't be any marathon today. gonna go to pulau putri tmrw for diving. oh yayyerz.
i'm nervous though :(
well wish me luck!
ciao bella.
Quote of the day a.k.a Wall of Shame
X (he'd kill me if i write his name): naik-naik bandung. lol
agnes, gino, me: roflmao
me: *hampir keselek gara2 gino ketawa kayak orang kebelet eek*
me: hahaha dia naik-naik bandung, kita halo-halo puncak gunung.
all: roflmao
ps: been a long time i've written the wall of shame. it's back. so beware people. hahahah.
Labels: High School Remedies, Memories too beautiful too erase..., Monotonous yet Colourful Days, Thoughtful Thoughts
Tuesday, March 10, 2009 // 9:58 PM
these two blogposts made my day.
Shower’s hair.
wow. gorgeous much? he looks so damn captivating in that picture. it was a totally jaw-dropping moment when i opened his blog. couldn't stop staring at the screen for a whole five minutes. i didn't even bother to scroll down and check out his saturday night music club, which is usually the first thing i search for in his blog and my favourite part of his blog as well haha.
but seriously, amidst the stress i'm coping with, it totally brigthened me up haha.
oh here's another one. an entry by the singer/songwriter mega genious Gary Lightbody on
Snow Patrol's blog:
Friends and music. They are simpatico of course but not always in a positive way. Sometimes we share what we hate most with our friends and in conspiring it helps us to validate our dislikes and galvanise our friendship. Yeah, well, fuck that. Galvanise your friendship (and flood the internet, why not) with the things you love. The thing you share. The thing that you think might make the other person you care abouts life better just by hearing it...
it made me smile. even for just a second. but it was a big smile, plus a warm touch to the heart. a part of it made ma laugh though, for the sheer truth of it. the part where he said that we share our dislikes with our friends, and by that we are validating that dislike but at the same time galvanising our friendship.
when you think of it, it's not so good, 'cause why spread hatred, not love? but still. the thing is, it's easier to find things hateable than things loveable. it's easier to talk about hateable things, too. whereas, with the things we love, it's sometimes hard to admit 'coz we deny that love, no? hmm, i feel like i'm talking nonsense right now haha. i probably am. :p
well anyways. yeah.
i love how he said that we should galvanise our friendship by sharing about the things we love and the things that make our friend's life better, because we care for them. so i suppose trashtalking is out of the question to build up friendship, huh? hahaha.
oh well guys, that's all for today i guess. just a little sharing from me.
gotta get back to homeworks haha.
bonne nuit!
Labels: Thoughtful Thoughts
i'm hopeless, academic habit-wise. i just can't stop procrastinating. it's fun. maybe it's just gonna be a trait that i'll live on forever.
bummer.
well, whatever, i couldn't care less (for now).
good night. long weekend is finally over.
oh no.
Sunday, March 08, 2009 // 4:43 PM
"Jazz rhymes with Mraz."
Jason Mraz was awesome! it was definitely worth the 3-hour wait, which becomes all the more excruciating when i really have to pee but as it turns out the toilet line is practically the same as the concert line. bummer. but yeah, it was definitely worth the wait. Jason Mraz really totally mesmerised me, especially with that goofy dance of his, which was just adorable. it was really great seeing him live! all yous who missed it totally miss a great deal of exceptional music!
however i think java jazz was rather chaotic this year. it was just so full of people. the crowd was unbelievable. i went to java jazz since it first started and i have never seen such crowd. jcc was just filled with people. it was practically impossible to get food there too. i mean, rasti and i had to actually get out of jcc to get food 'coz we were sooooo hungry after the concert haha.
oh here's a funny story. rasti and i decided to get out of jcc and catch a cab from sultan to fX. but i don't think the driver knows where fX is so he took us to eX. haha. we were so hungry we didn't really care anymore. as long as we were able to get decent food in a decent manner. haha.
because of the crowd (and the somehow not-so-great artist lineup), i didn't really get to see much on java jazz. but whatever, both artists i saw yesterday was just sensational! so after our little trip to eX, i went with my dad to catch this band called Sensual, from Netherlands. i heard they played bossa, and i love bossa so i decided to check it out.
and as it turns out, THEY WERE AMAZING! eva kieboom's voice was very much soothing and wonderful. if you listened to it, you'd problly think she's portuguese, but she's actually from holland.
oh oh, and lebih gilanya lagi, gw sama rasti sbenernya ktmu sm bassist and drummernya waktu di tunnel sultan-jcc! kita kleper2 ga jelas wkt liat betapa cakepnya mreka haha. we totally had no idea that they were members of such amazing band! hahaha. i was really dissapointed that i didn't know that and i didn't get their autograph or pictures.
Sensual.
BUT, the universe works in mysterious ways. because after Sensual's show, they had signing sessions! yeaaaaaayyyy!! i was so stoked! coz i got my CD signed and took pictures with the members of the band!
top to bottom: with rik kraak (bass), with tim danek (drums) and emiel (keyboard), with eva kieboom (vocals)
yayyerz. rasti was freaking out when i told her bout this. haha see rast, i told you, you should've stayed! hahaha. but again, sensual's songs are awesome. some are very soothing some makes you just wanna move! although i watched their show at midnight, the vibe was still there and the band was very much communicative and made us sing along. there's really not much i can say about them, just go get their cd (if there is still any available haha). oh oh my favorite song from them is this one called Uma Ponte, which turns out to be about this guy who's trying to build a bridge from amsterdam to el salvador to be with his girl. so sweet :) though i don't understand the lyrics coz it's in portuguese hahaha. it's still sweet.
well i'm closing off this post with uma ponte right here. listen to it and you'll get hooked for sure haha.
orite then, people. enjoy your long weekend! :)
Labels: Reviews, starstruck.
Wednesday, March 04, 2009 // 10:06 PM
yayy i finally managed to finish a short story. in a miraculous time span of 3 days. hmm it's pretty personal, so maybe that's why i could finish it so fast. i felt like i was telling a story about me and this one person. but maybe not haha.
i'm not sure myself.
i've sent it to GoGirl. hope they'll publish it.
i wrote under a pen name though, because of the whole personal thing. sooo yeah haha.
i'm just so glad i finally write something again. it reassure myself that i actually still have something i'm good at. and i'm gonna hold on as hard as i could to that.
hmmm.
right. what else to post?
oh, right. saman was superfreakin' awesome today. tho it's complicated like shit. but it's real fun! especially when you're doing it with a lotta people. can't wait to actually get it right haha.
well that's it from me for the night.
got econs assmnt tmrw.
omfg no kill me now.
figuratively of course.
c yew.
Sunday, March 01, 2009 // 11:37 PM
i love you.
that's my secret.
no hearts, no pretty drawings
no poems or cryptic messages.
i love you.
[disclaimer: no i didn't write that. it was the artist's comment on the deviantart page]
cue the sunset
the paradoxical moment of the day
the end of all things pretty
the start of all things dark
stuck in my self-scripted miserable soliloquy
i let the cloud hover over my head
covering the sea of stars
that are supposedly beautiful
but somehow, deep down i know
not now, but soon
you'd come around and part the clouds
so i can see the stars again
question is,
how soon?
jkt, 01 mar 09
11:21 PM
somehow inspired by imogen heap's not now but soon. :s
Labels: poems
exactly.
i know i've always been going out on saturdays this past february.
but guess what.
i still want more.
and i can't get enough of it.
at times i don't mind spending money to watch movies or eating out.
just as long as it doesn't involve exam papers or market failure graphs or calorimetries or other shits.
so please, dearest weekdays. skim by me fast, would ya??
thankyous.
