Saturday, June 06, 2009 // 9:39 AM
oh yeah first weekend in the summer. but, is it me, or this summer seems highly exhausting and overwhelming? i mean never have i gone to school during my summer holidays. whereas i'm supposed to seek a little 'restricted to friends and me only' time.
BUT, NO.
i still have to finish reporting my CAS evidences to ms. vivi and ms. alma.
and discuss how i'd go about with my EE with mr. joel.
and talk about what on earth is my econs IA article supposed to be about with ms. bernadette.
i have a bad feeling this summer would be really different than the last ones. i mean, we students get the privilege of having to start the holidays a week before the teachers do. but now i still have to come to school to seek meeting with teachers in order to get some of my IB prerequisites done and over with. though it's better than having to wake up at 6.30am to go to school, but i'd rather not go to school at all during the holidays.
oh, the torture.
and i'll have to go to CISV's prototype camp team building later this afternoon (i.e. train leaves in 5 hours). i'm trying to convince myself it'll be fun. but somehow my mood is rather feeble today. then again, i really want to do this, i mean i made a commitment so i'd have to stick with it. hmm, maybe it's just me. i'm pretty sure once i got there things'll turn out good.
(i really do hope so.)
well proto camp would be a big challenge this year, as i am camp-directing for the first time ever and was notified only, say, 2 days ago. meanwhile camp is 10 days away. i'm doing a lousy job :s
oh my god i really should stop whining!
there's no room for whines in the summer!
get yourself together, nandra!
*slaps face*
(i'm speaking figuratively of course, am not masochistic)
harr must stop randomly ranting about the shits in life, i.e. IB
the sun is shining today and not a hint of rainfall this morning (yet)
meanwhile i'm gonna check if i packed the right stuffs.
enjoy your summer, guys!
p.s: for my other ib-fucked friends out there, FORGET ABOUT IT! IT'S SUMMER, BABY WHOOOOO!!!
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Saturday, May 02, 2009 // 2:49 PM
i hate being at home because of a bad flu when i'm supposed to be enjoying a lovely saturday out after all the ib craps i've done over the weekdays.
i hate having to chug down flu meds which leaves a crappy taste in my tounge.
i'm having a bad flu and a crappy weekend. my mom's quarantining me at home. :(
for the past 6 hours since i got back from the doctor's i've stayed in bed with the tv on, watching a friend's marathon, some travel show on natgeo adventure, some cartoon on disney channel. well basically i channel surfed for 6 whole freakin' hours.
egh. sucks to be me.
you guys go enjoy your saturday while i scour the shelf for dvds to watch :s
cyew.
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Wednesday, April 29, 2009 // 9:34 PM
i hate how headaches ruin my mood as much as i hate how IB is slowly ruining the peak of my teenage life.
especially if i still have to study chemistry because i just don't want to fail. studying 8 chapters of IB chemistry is just pure torture. and attempting to do past exam papers with a big iceberg on top of you head is PERENNIAL TORTURE. i might just DIE.
pardon my hyperbolic remarks. but it's seriously bugging me. there's so much to do yet there's so little energy in me to finish my tasks.
this headache is killing my productivity too. i have this urge to sketch. but the headache is hindering me from making good sketches. :(
hmm.
i'm blaming everything on this headache. so sue me for making excuses. though mind you, these are not excuses. i'm just stating facts and how i feel right now. so whatever.
i have a fucking long to do list.
i feel like burning the IB office. care to join me?
DISCLAIMER: just kidding, peeps. don't sue me because of what i just said or think that this post is a terrorist threat for the IB. i'm just a DP student trying to figure out a way to get through this crap while asking myself why i'm still fighting. oh right, it's probly because i'm RESILIENT. oh wow. i'm so much an ideal binusian without me realising.
GREAT.
highlight of my life.
(add a hint of sarcasm there, mind you).
oh wow i can't stop typing. there's so much in my head. which brings me to another question. maybe this is what's causing my headache. hmm. i want to vacuum all these thoughts out.
argh.
oh man. i don't think i'll ever stop. sooooo i'm gonna stop typing. hit the publish post button. and go to bed.
thanks for letting me share my feelings today, guys haha. if this makes your day bleaker that it's supposed to be then pardon me. i really dont have the intention of doing so, nor do i expect to make your day brighter with my posts. sooo, yeah do wat cha gotta do.
me loves yous.
good night :)
Labels: random rants, Totally Random
Tuesday, February 17, 2009 // 10:51 PM
i wonder how hard it is for me to get things done nowadays. i mean, seriously.
i have things all carefully planned. i tried, but to actually DO it is the hardest part of all planning stages.
i have heaps of things to submit in a matter of days. this week is seriously hectic. but i didn't manage to get a single thing done.
and when things aren't done i get frantic and frustrated.
and when i get frantic and frustrated, i malfunction.
and when i malfunction, i'm not able to do anything.
it's a devil's circle, really.
ofuck.
i used to find it rather easy, well ok not easy, but not that hard either, to write essays. ideas use to pour out of my head and straight to my pen so easily. but not lately. i've been trying to write the TOK essay and i've got the ideas alright. but i can't seem to write it all down.
don't get me wrong, despite the boring class, i like TOK, it's a very interesting subject.
but yeah, i dunno.
maybe i overthink things? my mom thinks i'm a perfectionist. well i dont think so, coz i dont want things to be perfect, i just want to get it done.
how can i be a perfectionist when i can't get things done right?
gaaaah. this is crazy.
and random too.
it's a devil's circle i tell you.
and i'm right in the center, with no way out.
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