today is the first day in the first month of 2009. hmm, so many firsts experienced today.
i watched the first sunrise of 2009 in my first car ride home of 09. haha. it's funny when i witnessed the sun rising, it was not just a begining of a new day, but a whole new year.
so when i get home, i took my first shower of 09 at 6am. as i washed my hair, i thought about the things i would like to wash away from the past year. the pain and the mistakes i made, especially. but i also thought how i wanted to hold on to some things. although i know it would or at least might bring me a series of disappointment. but then i thought, everything -- every decision i'd make, big or small -- would have some kind of consequences, it's inevitable not to. and i'd just have to endure it. there a whole new year ahead, and i'm bracing for not just satisfaction, but also bitter things. afterall, life is bittersweet. like dark chocolate, it's bitter yet we savour every bite of it :)
there are some things i learned the past 2008, and i'd like to think of what i've been through and felt and cried and laughed for as a guide for this new year. a guide to understand and expect consequences.
of course i'm not only hoping for all those. i'm hoping for a lot of things. i want to spend every single minute surrounded by my loving friends and family. there'll be jagged roads, but i know it'll be worth it. :)
oh, my new year's eve?
i went to tante tetet's new years eve party at her place. met up with my CISV friends. it was fun! we sang and dance and eat eat eat. haha. her dining table(s) was overflowing with food. ;p
i ended up staying at tante tetet's until 5am. well it was more like "numpang tidur bentar" hehe. then eko took us home and that's how i watch the first sunrise of 09 haha.
i got home at around 5:45am (the road was ridiculously empty haha). then i took a quick shower then sleep again (emang dasar kebo lu, nan!) at 6:30-ish until 12:30pm. HAHA. it's effing weird, really, having a morning nap HAHA. well i didn't really get a decent sleep at tante tetet's :p only managed to sleep for two hours. =D
well anyways. here's my resolutions (in no particular order):
1. hold on and let go :)
2. all grades above 7/10 !!
3. excellent extended essay first draft (HAHAHA)
4. be less bitchy and temperamental :p
5. write moooore !!
6. decide on universities and major(s).
7. more faithful (?) or at least find it (?)
8. GET TO SCHOOL BEFORE 7:15am AND THEREFORE NOT EVER TAKING THE STUPID STAIRS!!!
9. be more mature :)
10. REFRAIN FROM PROCRASTINATING!!!!
haha.
that's a lot. but hey, i got a whole year ahead of me. wish me luck, guys! :)
