is it because i've passed so many new years before? that it doesn't matter much anymore?
or is it because i think that it means so many things has passed me by and with the new year even more things will start to slip through my fingers?
or i just dont want to embrace the future? not even wanting to wait and see for what comes next; because unpredictability sucks.
or is it because the same resolutions over and over again -- 'coz last year's resolution was a complete failure?
or is it just because some things dont go the way i expected it to, and the next year would be another series of dissapointment?
or is it because it means that i'll grow older and people would expect more from me, but then again i couldnt put forward that expectation? yet another dissapointment.
or am i just ungrateful of life?
i dont know why i'm posting in such a sombre mood. i mean, new year's suppose to be festive and i love festivity. hmmm. well i hope it's just the sudden flu =S
well don't let me be the rain on your parade people. go enjoy your new year's eve! :)