it's nandra. they also call her nashz, the history of such name is way too long to elaborate in this little space. she's seventeen. she's a she. she lives a typical metropolitan lifestyle in the capital of Indonesia. she's currently in her senior year of high school, enduring the second and last year of IB Diploma Programme that's totally ruining her life slowly.
but she thinks the whole suffering would give her some sort of advantage in the (scarily) near future. she's a CISVer and lovin' every bit of it. oh, she also very much enjoys mango juice, she'd even prefer it than OJ haha. and while we're at it, yes, she might be random from time to time. she wishes you'd be quite patient about it. :)
♥
reading
writing
ear-friendly songs
pop art
photography
adobe photoshop cs3
Grey's Anatomy McSteamy :)
John O'Callaghan :)
novels by J.K Rowling, Judy Blume, Melissa de la Cruz & Sitta Karina
right at this moment, i totally don't fucking care about chemistry and all it's madness. despite the fact that academic shitz my first top priority right now, i still don't care.
i wonder when can i not care about something but not feel bad about it.
man, this is shitz.
all this academic nonsense is blocking my chance of being creative. coz i've been trying to write but don't have the time to do so. fuck, i hate this.
Friday, October 24, 2008 // 11:09 PM
reality show channel, much?
i am just so sick of the fact that the only two music channels on TV is dominated by freakin' reality shows! i mean, MTV stands for music television not reality show television. there's a reason why it's called music television! because it's suppose to feature music videos! or music charts or music-themed feature shows. not reality shows! which doesn't hav any relations at all to music!
God, this is pissing me off. I mean, i've been in front of the TV for like nearly 2 hours... it's all reality show on both mtv and v channel! i mean! helloooooo!! i don't want to watch australia's top model, OK???!!! or the real world! which ironically is not even real!!! it's fake. the real world is not taped.
the worst reality show is the bad girls club. and it's all bitching bitching bitching. and catfights. i mean, wtf??!!! it's so not something pleasant to watch! i can't even stand looking at the screen for like a minute! goodness.
these reality shows are so degrading our morales. i mean, it's as if our personal life is shown to the whole world! which doesn't make it personal anymore. it's so crazy.
but the thing that pisses me off the most is the fact that my fave music channel is airing it. i really don't see what's the reason of calling the channel music television. coz really, it feels as if i'm seeing less music videos and more reality shows.
ok so this post is gonna be kinda philosophical in a way. haha. yeah i know and i don't even like tok wth.
so anyways, i've read just listen by sarah dessen for like a hundred times. it's one of my favorite books from her. so i'm pretty amazed by the character owen armstrong. outside he's like stocky and big and wears gigantic boots. but inside, he's an optimistic, rather idealist, avid music listener (though he listens to techno, which, much like anabel, i hate). but he once mentioned this sort of... way of thinking. he called it "thinking towards the middle". in which, i've taken into consideration lately.
and i think kelly bowden, cisv's ijr sorta mentioned this once during a session in jasparc. i think it was when we talked about organising a mini camp. she told us that we shouldn't always expect the extremes; it's not always really good or really bad. but you should find a middle ground between really good and really bad. coz face it, things rarely fall into the extreme. things don't always be exceptionally good or fuck-tardedly bad. most of the time, it falls right in the middle.
and lately, that's how i've been thinking about things. when i face a puzzling, rather contradictary question, i'd try to find the middle ground for the answer.
for example, the question: is it destiny or choice that determines your fate?
tough question, i know. and an extreme statement refering to that question that i once saw was: destiny are for losers, we shouldn't wait for something to happen rather we should make things happen.
now, i don't think that statement is wrong or right. now i personally think that both destiny and choice determines our fate. i believe that God up there already sets out several destinies for us, and now it's only a matter of making the right choices in order to determine that fate. so at the end of the road, there lies of fate as well as destiny.
so i do agree that we shouldn't just wait around for something to be destined to us, life's way to valuable for that. but it doesn't necessarily mean that destiny is nonexistent.
now that's what i mean by thinking towards the middle, finding a firm ground between the sky above and the earth below.
another example of me thinking towards the middle is when refering to the case of evolution and where humans came from. the debate that's been going on and on for years is that God created Adam and Eve or Darwin's theory of evolution -- neanderthals and all. but i personally have this (problly rather bizzare) thought that what if both theories are right?
what if Adam and Eve is the first humans on Earth but they were a prehistoric ape-like human at the same time? i mean, no one knows, right? we can't go back in time to prove that! meanwhile we've got fossils to prove that some kind of prehistoric humankind was alive thousands of years ago. could they be Adam and Eve?
ok this is getting WAY to heavy. lets not debate these things. it might defunctionalise (is this even a word? ;p ) my brain. ouch.
so anyways. i find that thinking towards the middle is a peaceful way of thinking. not taking sides of the extremes. and it's optimistic too. not too optimistic that when you don't get the result you optimistically expected, you'd get all down and suicidal (hyperbolic i know, pardon me). on the other hand not too pessimistic that you become such a hopeless zombie and near-suicidal. it's just... the right proportion. haha.
so when i think about my math test or something. i expect to do good, but not perfect. i also expect that i could do it, and that i will not be unable to do it.
sooo yeah, that's a piece of my mind today. i know. i could get philosophical sometimes. it just seems kind of interesting to share between my bahasa essay that just bores me. i spose i'll bring my laptop tmrw and make it at school during lunch or something haha.
so yeah today was rather torturous. craaazy. i want more holidays! it's only the first day of school and i already have tasks. oh god.
but meeting friends was niiiice! :) miss them! it's the only thing i miss from school i spose haha. oh well.
anyways here's a soundtrack for my last weekend (before school starts, i mean):
"...so leave us one
more weekend.
You've got all the friends you need,
bad tattoos and worse IDs. You feel alive,
do you feel alive?"
One More Weekend - The Academy Is...
so i hung out with gaby rasti angie dea and icha during my last weekend before school haha. what we did when we hung out... we'd like to keep it to ourselves. haha.
but it was such a blast. beyond awesome. i want more, girls! haha. oh and for someone, thnks fr th mmrs :) and yeah, it was pretty much the mess that feels so right. :P hahaha.
anyways... got stuff to do, omfg. :(
gnite!
Friday, October 10, 2008 // 9:52 PM
imysm :(
ok this is going to be totally random. but watevs. if u dont wanna read it then fine. :)
so anyways. i've been missing a lot of people lately, hence the title. it's just that i've been in contact with people i haven't talked to or meet with in a course of months. and i realised how i miss them so so much and really wishing that i'd see them soon. :(
i chatted with feli some two-three days ago. the last time i met her was last december. and we didn't meet quite frequently. only once or twice during the december holidays. and i miss her soooooo much! :( we've been friends for so long and went through all good times and bad times. and chatting with her made me miss all of my other elementary school friends. the ones that are currently abroad or the ones that are still in jakarta but i havent met them for so long. i'm really dreading a reunion. whether it is a sleepover, or just hanging out talking about random stuffs and nostalgic stories haha. care, feli, julia come back soon! i miss you guys loooooads! :D
and now i'm currently chatting with anna and mari from camp. and ohmygod do i miss them tons! i havent been in contact with people from camp lately. just through facebook and its not that frequent. :( it's kind of hard to keep contact with people who lives halfway across the world. yknow, time zones and all haha. but really, i miss camp so so so much! it's so excruciating to know for a fact that maybe we won't see each other again! it's sooo sad! i'm literally close to tears! :'(
none the less, i really hope i can at least keep in contact with everyone though. i dont want to regret it, yknow? coz friends are priceless treasures that you should keep forever. just imagine what it would feel like losing such treasure. surely it's not nice at all, right? :)
well, that's all from me folks! have a good night! :)
i like writing reviews. but haven't done any in a long time. haha. once i wanted to do it monthly yet i haven't exactly kept that promise. so i wanna start! woot!
Definitely, Maybe
Directed by: Adam Brooks
Starring: Ryan Reynolds, Abigail Breslin, Rachel Weisz
alright, i know it's so last summer, but let me tell ya, it's a love story told like no other.
so it's a story about a guy called Will Hayes (Reynolds), who's in the midst of a divorce. one night, his daughter Maya (Breslin) asked him about his life before marriage. Will agrees to tell this 'bedtime story', but changed the names and Maya will have to guess which one of his past girlfriends is her mom. so his story begins loooong before Maya was born, when Will was just out of college.
see, it's a love story like no other. Will's love life is told in a series of flashbacks and Maya constantly comments on his 'story'. i think i could dub this movie as the ultimate romantic comedy. Ryan Reynolds was absolutely awesome and charming. the love stories are unique, each of them as a story of their own. although maybe some were a little bit umm... cheesy? but i thought it was okay.
what i love about this movie is probably the message in it. well the message that i capture of course, dunno about you lot. anyways what i get was... i know it may seem common but... it's the person right in front of you, the person who's always been there from the start, the person who you hardly realize that they are there from the start... that is the person worth holding on to, worth loving... and i think it's absolutely true :)
anyways, here's my favourite quote from the movie:
Will Hayes: I kept the book... April: Yeah? Will Hayes: Because it was the only thing that I had left of you.
aaaawh. so sweet. :)
well peeps, i really wanna do another one. but i'm kinda drowsy. it's problly the flu meds. haha. so my next review would be on sarah dessen's lock and key, hopefully haha.
i mean i can hardly eat anything good. been stuffing myself with freakin' poached eggs. and i don't like it. i want my omelletes :( but i can't coz my throat is sooo sore. aaaarh
and today is just not good. everything went wrong. first i was sick. then my laptop can't connect to the internet (using mom's now). then the desktop is just dead. goodness. wtf?? i'm becoming more cranky with the whole flu thing. hate it hate it hate it. aaaaaah
i'm in love with william beckett and the academy is... they're just soooo supermassive-ly amazing!! fast times at barrington high is problly one of the best albums evvuur haha. ok a little hyperbolic on that. and william beckett is just awesomeness! argh. me love him! haha.
oh oh oh. and thanks to anya, i now love runner runner. woot woot! check out their myspace people! their songs are aaaawesome!
aaaahhh i hate being sick. it's making me write this random post. random posts sux. omg wats wrong with me.
Monday, October 06, 2008 // 11:53 PM
stop making plans, start making sense. :P
haha i learned that today i guess. "when it's lebaran or holiday time, it's hard to make plans with your friends 'coz it's either they have their own plans or no drivers." HAHAHA. :p
so the whole JAJA and friends goes to tebet plan pretty much went down the drain. coz out of six (?) people invited only anya and i can make it. haha.
but it was still fun i spose, although won't be as fun without the others :( bloop was crazily full of people. i couldn't breathe inside, the ac practically doesn't work and i keep on bumping into crazy shoppers haha. but i got some cool stuff tho so it's quite worth it i guess. but nanonine was okay. not full of people at all. and the ac works a bit. haha.
then i went to fX with anya. i thought mom would pick me up asap coz she told me she needs to get the groceries.
but no.
she slept and got to fX at like, 6PM or something. gaah. so that gave anya and i around 3 hours to do absolutely nothing. haha. went to tendencies tho. and i bought more stuff! hahaha.
i guess i spent a total of 7oothou today. haha :D shopping spree!! it was good tho :)
but not so good coz i'm suddenly down with this stupid ugly flu. i keep on sneezing and sneezing and blowing my nose every 5 seconds. it's killing me. :( just woke up after a tablet of medicine and now i'm all queasy and pusing :(
gaaah. get this flu awaaaay :(
well anyways. i guess that's all haha.
cya people.
enjoy the rest of the holiday!
ps: jakarta's pretty much crowded again. kuningan was jammed tonight. gaaah :( pps: just heard on the radio that for miley cyrus's sweet sixteen, her parents closed down disneyland for the whole day. zomfg. ppps: aaargh. my laptop's all fucked up can't connect to the internet aaaaaaaahh.
Sunday, October 05, 2008 // 10:34 PM
neeeew :)
yeah i get bored easily. haha
i'm all for simplicity now and this is the best one i found after hours of scouring through blogskins.
i'm very picky when it comes to skins. i think the aesthetic aspect of a blog is important. haha
orite people hope ya like it.
cheers!
crazy late night conversation continued (plus a little youtube this time) haha
sooo yeah. my convo with ichel expanded. to a nite of me, ichel and anya youtubing. which is fun! and crazeeeh.
me on video of john ohhh calling this girl...
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
ANJRIT CHEL GW BISA BUNUH DIRI
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
*lebay
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bu6r3wt7BqU
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
it's john ohh tho
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
lol
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
JOHN THE MAINE?
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
IYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
GILAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
HE CALLED THAT NICOLE GIRL
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
OMYFUCK!!!!
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
LEAVE MSG?
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
IYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
us on gaskarth's so-called tattoo:
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
itu tattoo nyong
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
itu permanent?
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
ato booangan sii
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
lol
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
OK BOONGAN
anya says:
LOLOL
anya says:
IYA
anya says:
GUE LG NGAKAK
anya says:
ABIS
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
hahahaha
anya says:
HAHAHAHA
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
gw ky "YA AMPUN BNERAN LG"
anya says:
itu yg ditempel gt
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
iyaa
anya says:
yg dr permen karet
anya says:
HAHAHAHA
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
HAHAHAHAHHAHA
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
yg dpt dr jagoan neon gt kan
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHA
us on our future marriage
anya says:
im gonna marry john gomez
anya says:
a a a yeh
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
yeaaay
...
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
iya when you marry him
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
i'll marry gaskarth tralala
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
i'll marry john ohhhh
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
ehh kita buat 2 in 1 wedding
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
okay, 3 :p
...
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
HAHAHA
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
HAHAHAHA
...
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
ntar ganti2an gt pas anya merit johnohh and gaskarth jd best man nya
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
trus pas ichel tukeran gt hahaha
us on: "what if all time low comes to jkt..."
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
duh gila gw bayangin mreka klo konser dsni gmna yaa
...
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
lol
...
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
HAHAHHAHA
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
I KNOOOOW
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
gila mreka klo konser disini bisa pingsan duluan gw dnger britanya
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
hahaha
anya says:
gue kejet2x
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
AYAN GW
well that's all folks. it was a crazy night. haha
Saturday, October 04, 2008 // 11:17 PM
crazy late night conversation :D
haha ichel kocak deh haha.
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! (ichel) says:
nan
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
gw takut ni
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
yeee?
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
knp2?
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
gilaa
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
gw dnger suaranya alex gaskarth
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
smpe bulu kuduk gw berdiri
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
OMIGE
haha. gila gw kira knapa gtu.
tapi stelah itu... gw kecantol jg haha
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
gw lg ntnin video dya
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
nyanyi rememberin sunday
babbling, bumbling band of baboons ! says:
sama juliet simms :p
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
*nandra ~ it's the mess that feels so right. says:
haha iya deh chel, lo ga gila sndiri. tapi lo tetep lebih gila daripada gw.
HAHAHAHA.
gaskarth is hot.
see the video.
kthxbye. =D
Friday, October 03, 2008 // 9:21 PM
so i was scouring my pics and i've come to a conclusion.
i like my hair wavy better. haha .
i'm so saving for another digital wave haha.
yeah that's all i wanna say.
yup, u've guessed it ppl.
i'm fucking bored. haha
omfg
so effing bored man, oh my God. it feels like i've done everything 'round here (except ironing the piles of clothes. damn)
but why am i so bored?
oh please God help me.
breaking dawn's not that appealing somehow. i'm kinda getting tired of reading it. somehow melancholic, ya? hmmm. tau ah. ;p
man, no one's online. pfft.
fine, i think i'm gonna go swim.
cya!
lalaland
hey guess what ppl. i tried to make my own blog layout and i've come up with one conclusion.
not a chance.
yup despite my effort i still can't do it. so i guess i'm sticking to those amazing blogskinners now and forever haha.
so i guess i'll fill everyone up with random updates.
first up: lebaran!
man, do i love lebaran. it's nice. meeting families. eating ktupat + opor + rendang (which i'm now so sick of). getting moneeey haha. it's just a nice atmosphere. everyone is up for apologizing and forgiving. it's like the world is full of loveee.
and another nice thing.
jakarta's freakin' deserted.
like, fuck yeah! haha. you could actually cruise up to 80 km/h in kuningan. which is impossible to do on normal days. haha
fuckthisbitch
THURSDAY, OCTOBER 02, 2008
mood: hmm listening to:
i want this bitch to die. ALL TIME LOW, PARAMORE, WE THE KINGS, PLAIN WHITE T'S FANS, WATCH THIS:
ichel and nandra, i know you're with me bbs. i don't get how she can insult hey there delilah. hahaha, poor bitch.
omfg. i really don't get why she has to trash about bands she doesn't happen to like. i mean, i know you don't like paramore, we the kings, all time low and plain white t's but do you have to trash about them to the whole fcuking world? i mean no one seems to be trashing about bands she likes! god, she should get a life. get something better to do. try yoga or something, just stop trashing! sheesh.
driving lessons...
are sooo much fun! i know it's another two years till i can officially get my license, but wth! i wanna learn to drive! haha. and mom's really patient giving me driving lessons haha.
ok, i don't know what else to write about. nothing meaningful much, really. my holiday's been kinda monotonous actually. despite lebaran and everything. i did get to watch laskar pelangi on monday with ray, mike and gabysd tho. whis is sooo good. miles films has totally done it again! well i guess more details on that later.
