Monday, October 20, 2008 // 10:10 PM
ok so this post is gonna be kinda philosophical in a way. haha. yeah i know and i don't even like tok wth.
so anyways, i've read just listen by sarah dessen for like a hundred times. it's one of my favorite books from her. so i'm pretty amazed by the character owen armstrong. outside he's like stocky and big and wears gigantic boots. but inside, he's an optimistic, rather idealist, avid music listener (though he listens to techno, which, much like anabel, i hate). but he once mentioned this sort of... way of thinking. he called it "thinking towards the middle". in which, i've taken into consideration lately.
and i think kelly bowden, cisv's ijr sorta mentioned this once during a session in jasparc. i think it was when we talked about organising a mini camp. she told us that we shouldn't always expect the extremes; it's not always really good or really bad. but you should find a middle ground between really good and really bad. coz face it, things rarely fall into the extreme. things don't always be exceptionally good or fuck-tardedly bad. most of the time, it falls right in the middle.
and lately, that's how i've been thinking about things. when i face a puzzling, rather contradictary question, i'd try to find the middle ground for the answer.
for example, the question: is it destiny or choice that determines your fate?
tough question, i know. and an extreme statement refering to that question that i once saw was: destiny are for losers, we shouldn't wait for something to happen rather we should make things happen.
now, i don't think that statement is wrong or right. now i personally think that both destiny and choice determines our fate. i believe that God up there already sets out several destinies for us, and now it's only a matter of making the right choices in order to determine that fate. so at the end of the road, there lies of fate as well as destiny.
so i do agree that we shouldn't just wait around for something to be destined to us, life's way to valuable for that. but it doesn't necessarily mean that destiny is nonexistent.
now that's what i mean by thinking towards the middle, finding a firm ground between the sky above and the earth below.
another example of me thinking towards the middle is when refering to the case of evolution and where humans came from. the debate that's been going on and on for years is that God created Adam and Eve or Darwin's theory of evolution -- neanderthals and all. but i personally have this (problly rather bizzare) thought that what if both theories are right?
what if Adam and Eve is the first humans on Earth but they were a prehistoric ape-like human at the same time? i mean, no one knows, right? we can't go back in time to prove that! meanwhile we've got fossils to prove that some kind of prehistoric humankind was alive thousands of years ago. could they be Adam and Eve?
ok this is getting WAY to heavy. lets not debate these things. it might defunctionalise (is this even a word? ;p ) my brain. ouch.
so anyways. i find that thinking towards the middle is a peaceful way of thinking. not taking sides of the extremes. and it's optimistic too. not too optimistic that when you don't get the result you optimistically expected, you'd get all down and suicidal (hyperbolic i know, pardon me). on the other hand not too pessimistic that you become such a hopeless zombie and near-suicidal. it's just... the right proportion. haha.
so when i think about my math test or something. i expect to do good, but not perfect. i also expect that i could do it, and that i will not be unable to do it.
sooo yeah, that's a piece of my mind today. i know. i could get philosophical sometimes. it just seems kind of interesting to share between my bahasa essay that just bores me. i spose i'll bring my laptop tmrw and make it at school during lunch or something haha.
oright people. it's late.
tmrw's tuesday. i hav the worst subjects yet.
crap.
ciao!
Labels: Thoughtful Thoughts, When Nandra Gets Philosophical