Tuesday, September 30, 2008 // 5:02 PM
alright the title says it all.
minal aidzin wal fa idzin ya temaaan2ku.
maafin kalo gw banyak salah2.
gw jg bakal memaafkan lo smua hehe.
mari kita saling bermaaf-maafan.
aaaah indahnya dunia ini hahaha. :D
have a happy lebaran smuaaa!
enjoy the ketupat. :)
with love,
nandra
Sunday, September 28, 2008 // 10:53 PM
inspired from The Academy Is'... song: His Girl Friday
monday afternoon
meet me out back
then we'll share
our ruthless endavour
through this accursed day
between kisses, of course
tuesday morning
pick me up with your black mustang
we'll tune up the stereo
scream at the top of our lungs
but remember
to pass through the rear gate
wednesay night
climb up the tree
slide up the rooftop
knock on my window pane
we'll spend the rest of the night
watching the night sky
glittered with bright stars
thursday afternoon
we'll drive out to the field
in the middle of nowhere
just the two of us
don't you worry, love
they'll never know
come friday
i'd usually lock my arms in his
i'd press my body into his
i'd kiss his lips not yours
i should tell you, it's bitter
unlike yours: sweet
but don't worry, baby
it's all different
starting from today
he's no longer in the picture
this time and forever
i'm your girl friday
ps: i was bored, ok. so it's not that good haha. :p comments are appreciated.
pps: listen to the academy is' new album ppl, it's really good!
Labels: poems
Monday, September 22, 2008 // 11:53 PM
it's crazy how a lot of times i felt like i'm searching for something, but that 'thing' is just... a blur. like i'm not sure
what it is i'm looking for. or maybe it's just too much, i can't make up my mind? i know, i'm still 15 and i should just live it. but it's inevitable. i mean, how could you not try to find a piece of a missing puzzle among these rubble?
i think i expect to much of myself. i'm so absorbed in the idea of being better or different, that i can't accept the fact that i'm just mediocre and mundane. i feel crazy. i mean, wtf, right? what's wrong with mundane? or is it just me? i really dont know.
anya's right, maybe we need johari window.
maybe that way i'll be able to... reconcile myself (?)
wtf.
Sunday, September 21, 2008 // 9:48 PM
so today's international peace day a.k.a peace one day.
jeremy menginginkan satu hari saja dimana semua orang diseluruh dunia tidak bertengkar. seluruh senjata api diletakkan di tanah begitu saja. tidak ada satu peluru pun yang keluar dari moncong sebuah AK-47 dan melukai seseorang. a global ceasefire day. wild, bukan?
banyak orang yang tidak percaya dengan jeremy gilley. banyak yang tidak mendukung impiannya. menurut mereka itu tidak mungkin terjadi. hanya utopia belaka. mereka bahkan mengusulkan pada jeremy untuk berhenti saja, toh tidak mungkin terjadi.
siapa dia bisa-bisanya menyuruh orang untuk berhenti berperang? dia tidak punya kuasa politik yang besar. jeremy gilley hanyalah salah satu dari kita. yang memiliki impian yang tinggi. impian yang indah untuk segala umat manusia di bumi. impiannya adalah impian semua orang.
perdamaian.
tapi kenapa banyak yang menentang? karena mereka tidak percaya. tapi jeremy gilley percaya. ia percaya bahwa semua orang dapat membuat perubahan.
perubahan itu harus dimulai dari diri kita. mungkin kalian semua bosan mendengar kata-kata itu. tapi itulah kenyataannya. kalau bukan kita siapa lagi? tapi jelas, akan susah bagi kita untuk membuat perubahan sendiri. kita pasti butuh sokongan dari orang lain, bukan? jeremy gilley jelas tidak berjuang demi perubahan sendiri, ia didukung teman-teman dan keluarganya. tapi bukan berarti kita tidak bisa membuat perubahan.
jeremy gilley memulai petisi untuk mendeklarasikan tanggal 21 september sebagai hari perdamaian sedunia pada tahun 1998. pada tanggal 7 september 2001, ia berhasil membuat impiannya terkabul. united nations general assembly membuat sebuah resolusi, disponsori oleh pemerintah costa rica dan uk -- secara formal mendeklarasikan tanggal 21 september, sebagai hari anti-kekerasan dan global ceasefire -- UN international peace day.
happily ever after? not quite. memang, jeremy gilley berhasil membuat hari perdamaian sedunia. but the global ceasefire part... masih belum tercapai. tapi, hey, itu tidak aku lihat sebagai kegagalan. karena pada detik saat tulisan ini dibuat, di belahan bumi yang lain, banyak orang yang memperingati hari ini. dan itu sudah cukup membuat mr. gilley bangga.
di inggris, jeremy gilley dan teman-teman selebritisnya sedang mengadakan konser. mungkin di itali sekarang, sekelompok remaja sedang berpesta, menggabungkan teman-temannya yang mungkin beda latar belakang (?) untuk berkumpul dan bersenang-senang -- melupakan perbedaan mereka. mungkin seseorang di amerika sana sedang meminta maaf pada temannya karena ia telah menghilangkan barang milik temannya itu? sepele memang, tapi meminta maaf bisa dibilang mempromosikan perdamaian, kan?
karena, face it, negara-negara semua lagi perang karena pada nggak mau minta maaf, kan? :)
hari ini gw udah mengadakan acara bersama teman-teman CISV gw untuk memperingati peace day. tadi kita masak untuk buka puasa bersama, dilanjutkan dengan menonton film pendek bertemakan perdamaian untuk didiskusikan bersama. yang membuat acara ini spesial adalah gw dan temen-temen CISVers yang lain mengajak anak-anak seumuran kita, yang tidak begitu berkecukupan seperti kita. jadi, walaupun acara yang kita adakan tidak begitu 'wah' tapi gw seneng banget, bisa berbagi kebahagiaan, pendapat dan pengalaman dengan anak-anak yang nggak seberuntung gw. and sharing all this, has made this one hell of a peace day!
now, friends! peace day akan berakhir beberapa jam lagi. tapi belum telat kok, untuk melakukan sesuatu untuk mencapai perdamaian. lagian, kalau ingin berbuat sesuatu untuk perdamaian, nggak harus pada tanggal 21 september, kok. kapan aja bisa, kan?
to close this, gw cuman pengen ambil intisari dari post hari ini. yaitu:
1. change is possible. if it's not us, then who?
2. if someone turn you down, what the heck?! go on with it! fight for something you believe in till the end!
3. strive and persevere.
4. there is no way to peace, peace is the only way (inspired by the amazing peace one day tshirt hahahaha). so start spreading the love and peace, people! anytime, anywhere, to anyone!
5. thanks for reading! :)
peace, love and hugs!
nandra~
Labels: CISV, Thoughtful Thoughts
Tuesday, September 16, 2008 // 10:11 PM
Are you male or female?
intro - maliq
Describe Yourself:
love song to remember - jamie scott [more like unrequited song to remember!]
What do people feel when they're around you?
all i want for christmas is you - olivia olson [aawwwhh..]
Describe your current relationship:
i still haven't found what i'm looking for - damien rice [omfg so freakin true!]
Where would you like to be now?
capri - colbie caillat
How do you feel about love?
disco - metro station [HAHAHA.]
What's your life like?
last night - motion city soundtrack [yeah, i was still alive last night]
What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
heels over head - boys like girls [sureee. -__-]
Say something wise:
feels like tonight - daughtry
If someone says "is this okay?" you say:
easy to please - coldplay [HAHAHA. THAT IS SOMEHOW HILARIOUS!]
How would you describe yourself?
little things - all american rejects [...that makes me who i am :)]
What do you like in a guy/girl?
because of you - kelly clarkson
How do you feel today?
california dreamin' - the mamas and the papas [haha yeah, looking at last summer's pics makes me miss california. :P]
What is your life's purpose?
someday you will be loved - death cab for cutie [HAHA. DEFINITELY MAYBE]
What is your motto?
i will always love you - whitney houston [yes, i will :)]
What do you think of your parents?
it's not over - daughtry
What do you think about very often?
i want you now - the feeling [haha. yeah... :( ]
What is 2 + 2?
if i had eyes - jack johnson [...that's healthy and not swollen i would know what 2+2 is HAHA]
What do you think of your best friend?
crest of waves - coldplay [metaphorically... maybe haha]
What is your life story?
dreaming with a broken heart - john mayer [HAHA. i had those moments]
What do you want to be when you grow up?
mary jane - the click five [haha i wouldn't mind being the girl kyle sings all the time! HAHA]
What will you dance to at your wedding?
expressions of love - raul midon [AAAAWWWWHHHH!! I DEFINITELY WANT TO!!!]
What will they play at your funeral?
someday - john legend [somehow it seems to fit...]
What is your hobby/interest?
lavender girl - megan bowman [i do like lavenders. haha]
What is your biggest fear?
state of mind - raul midon
What is your biggest secret?
what you thought you need - jack johnson [for a secret someone: i could be, yknow :)]
What do you think of your friends?
keeper - yellowcard [they sure are! :) ]
What will you post this as?
country roads - john denver [HAHA]
i'm falling deeper down
should i cry out for help?
or let my feather-like body
plunge into the chasm
but who knows... just in case...
there are pillows down there, right?
but what if...
it's cold hardwood?
or jagged rocks
ready to thrust me
straight to the heart
but what if you're waiting?
waiting to catch me in your arms
what if...
falling is not so bad after all?
16/9/08
unrequited, confused and smitten =P
Labels: poems, Thoughtful Thoughts
Monday, September 15, 2008 // 8:58 PM
1. chemistry's not so bad after all. :) got 86% yaay.
2. maths is still a big fuckhead.
3. i love english class. to the core of the core.
4. freerice is so addicting
5. speeches are not
6. my butt is hurting and my eyes is hazing for being in front of the computer too much. haha.
7. i need tebet. so badly. cmon friends, lets goooooo!! i'm so sick term tests astrocities! i need fun. and i need it fast.
8. i'm being less and less productive each day.
9. ok what else.
10. oh well. cya?
haha. :)
Sunday, September 14, 2008 // 10:04 PM
to whom it may concern,
come to think of it, you're the one i'll come crying to. thanks for trusting in me the way i trust you. though it's really hard for me to see you go off with her, it'll be harder to see you get hurt.
thanks. really.
for everything :)
oh, almost forgot! haha.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEKARSARI SADHATI!!
Friday, September 12, 2008 // 7:20 PM
it's over can you freaking believe it?? term tests is
over.
so over.like, hell yeah!
though we still got school days... but at least no more worries. no more memorizing formulas at night or terminologies of any kind. i can actually watch dvds and spend hours and hours on facebook.
freedom rocks.
sooo, tebet or taman menteng anyone? haha. :)
Thursday, September 11, 2008 // 6:29 PM
conscience: nandra, ayooo blajar dong. besok kan test business sama tok...
me: omfg. crappiest subject(s) eveerr.
conscience: nandra, cepetan blajar. hari smakin malam lhooo.
me: yeeeyy bukaaa! alhamdullilah...
conscience: ndra, bahan business banyak lhooo.
me: mwahaha kocak abis raditya dika. buka blog-nya deh, kocak lho!
conscience: madesu, lo nan.
me: emang.
i've been in front of the laptop for
hours. literally. my head is spinning and my eye is aching. but, really. i stay on anyways haha.
i know i know. suppose to study for tomorrow's business and tok tests. but, i really really don't want to pick up the paper and start revising. they're both sooo crappy anyways. sooo laaaazzzyy!! i really really just want to sleep until the next morning. aaarrhh.
i want this to end! it's so agonizing! why can't we have holidays right after the exams finished! why why why?
it's such a waste going to school after exams. there's no more drive to study.
i want photoshoots with 10a girls. and DIY-DAY too! or maybe even karaoke-ing.
wanna go to tebet with anya, adhyt, alvie, ichel and whoever-else wants to go and spend my lebaran money on supercute graphic t-shirts or other things from nanonine or bloop! uurgh, i heart distros!
another day of agony. then it's over.
so over.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008 // 5:36 PM
aduh, nandra... bukannya belajar...
--------------------------------------------
Mosh Pit Soundtrack
let them scream the words from the chorus
let the drums thump, colliding with the scream
let the guitar riffs explode
tearing excitement throughout the room
scream at the top of your lungs
jump as if the sky is our ceiling
bang your head, shake your hips
then our eyes meet, sudden electricity
don't think about the tomorrow, honey
just let it come and surprise you
don't think about the past, dear
just chunk it out of the back of your head
coz tonight's our night, baby
let's live it 'till the last second
it wont last forever
though our attraction will
[inspired by nick and norah's infinite playlist by david levithan and rachel cohn]
jkt, 07/09/2008
9:32 PM
Labels: poems
Tuesday, September 09, 2008 // 8:38 PM
*2ND WARNING: IF YOU DON'T WANT ME TO RUIN YOUR HAPPY DOODLEY DAY, DON'T READ THIS POST. SERIOUSLY. FOR YOUR OWN GOOD. IT'S NOTHING BUT ME SWEARING THE WHOLE FREAKING POST*
it pissed me off so fucking bad when i worked so hard for something but the end result is fucking failure. i'm angry yes. at who? go freaking figure. i don't know myself. mostly at myself though and the math test and whoever makes the math test.
i mean, WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT??!!
maths is such a fuckhead.
Monday, September 08, 2008 // 5:29 PM
omg tadi english susah banget. digergaji tuh pantat gw. (apa hubungannya? tanyalah pada yg diatas).
omg bsk math! gile hari ini aja pantat gw udh digergaji, besok di bakar kali yee??
omg ABIS ITU BAHASA!! otak gw mampet pet pet bo gile dah.
can i die now?*
*figurative language, people. don't take it seriously. or you will die.
Friday, September 05, 2008 // 9:11 PM
i'm so freakin' exhausted! every single thing is so freakin' tiring. preaparing for exams is draining all my energy. this past weekday i've been having either chemistry or math lessons. and it is very very very very tiring. my brain just can't take it anymore really! gaaah..
and oh my god i think my vision is getting worst! nooooo!! i want a healthy eyeeee!! :((( that is so random i know. but aren't any of you concerned with my eye health?? (i could picture you people with your eyebrows raised and repeatedly saying NO! or IDC! haha. my skeptic self is coming out. oh damn)
and hey guess what, ppl. i'm currently trying out google chrome. it's a browser from google, like IE and firefox. kinda cool. tapi kayak masih percobaan gt, so blm bgitu lengkap. like there's no status bar, so dat's kinda annoying when a page loads soooo long. haha. it's a very simple and concise (oh my god, mr. joel's vocabs are invading my head!). anyways, try it out if u're curious and have no idea what the heck i'm talking about. haha.
oh well. i'm so very sleepy. math has ruined the health of my brain! noooo.
;p
right so term tests start monday. after that i'll problly be so effing busy with buka puasa. oh god. just hope i'll survive.
so i guess it means i'll be in a short hiatus. like 2 weeks or sumthing. haha wat a hiatus.
cya people!
good luck with your term tests binusians!
may we ace it all!
oh yeah!
quote of da daaay:
*regarding loch ness monsters in TOK class*
me: yeah well, there were once those long-necked dinasours that can swim.
anya: omg, do they wear bikinis?
me: yeah, pink polka-dotted ones.
us: *lmao
*this happened thursday. something about the assembly i forgot*
me: seven freakin' twenty freakin' five!
(do you find it funny tho? hahaha)
