Sunday, May 24, 2009 // 10:25 PM
i turned my head around and glanced a bit at the past. i realised there are some people which i am not so close to anymore. i don't know which one of us pushed each other aside, or maybe other circumstances pushed us aside. i really don't know. but what i really do know is that i regretted every part of it. to have such close friendship with someone, to have someone to come crying to and to bitch about other people with. to have someone that you know would stick by your side no matter what happens. i hated the fact that we are not those people anymore. i really wish i could turn back time and mend the cracking foundation beneath us.
i really don't want to be one of those people who regretted not keeping their closed ones intact by the time they're 50. i don't want to stare at a polaroid and regretted not living in that moment long enough. i don't want to mope around on my own because of regret.
i know one should not look back at the past. but i want to be able to see the same things i did in the past when i looked ahead at the future.
is that even possible? i'm clueless myself. maybe i should start mending things in the present so that i could paint back the past in the future?
thoughts, anyone?
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