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it's nandra. they also call her nashz, the history of such name is way too long to elaborate in this little space. she's seventeen. she's a she. she lives a typical metropolitan lifestyle in the capital of Indonesia. she's currently in her senior year of high school, enduring the second and last year of IB Diploma Programme that's totally ruining her life slowly. but she thinks the whole suffering would give her some sort of advantage in the (scarily) near future. she's a CISVer and lovin' every bit of it. oh, she also very much enjoys mango juice, she'd even prefer it than OJ haha. and while we're at it, yes, she might be random from time to time. she wishes you'd be quite patient about it. :)

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Monday Freakin' Blues

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i'm a freakin' hypocrite. i have all this stupid commitments in my head, yet i didn't commit to it. i didn't even strive for it.
sometimes i feel like a total total hypocrite, i say this but i do the other the next day. stupid, no? i tried, i tried and tried and tried to do better academically. i'm actually striving to be the top, well not the top just above average. i'm just so freaking tired of being ur average joe. i want more.

i'm dissapointed with myself lately. why is it so hard to hold on to your commitments? why is it so hard to tell yourself, GO. but i end up in this miserable, pathetic state of laziness that i can't ever shake off. it's just so freakin' stupid.

i'm losing faith in myself. i want to do so many things to improve myself, yet there's this little conscience deep inside me, that keeps on saying, "ah, ntar juga ngga akan lo kerjain." or "ah, you'll end up failing again, anyways." those kind of stupid phrases keeps on echoing and ringing in my head. i feel like screaming. i want to scream for that tiny conscience to freaking stop or i'll freaking screw them stupid!

arrrh. all this stupid negative vibe is ating away my positive side. but really, it's bothering me.
hmmmm. i need encouragement people. seriously. but then again, it should come from myself. but wat can i do with all this negative thoughts i have in my head.

trus skarang gw musti ngapaaiiiin??
mau gw apa ssiiiiihhh??
bayangin, gw mempertanyakan hal2 kayak gitu.
hhh. life's complicated. and i'm not even halfway through life.

tau ah. gw gak mau mikir berat2. capek. ngantuk. 2 hari lagi assessment bi. bisa gila gw. i should sleep. clear my mind. stare at the ceiling.