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it's nandra. they also call her nashz, the history of such name is way too long to elaborate in this little space. she's seventeen. she's a she. she lives a typical metropolitan lifestyle in the capital of Indonesia. she's currently in her senior year of high school, enduring the second and last year of IB Diploma Programme that's totally ruining her life slowly. but she thinks the whole suffering would give her some sort of advantage in the (scarily) near future. she's a CISVer and lovin' every bit of it. oh, she also very much enjoys mango juice, she'd even prefer it than OJ haha. and while we're at it, yes, she might be random from time to time. she wishes you'd be quite patient about it. :)

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last but not least...
endpoint.
yet another dilemma of choices
I SURVIVED IB!
missing feelings.
apparition.
reasons why i want summer
Even though I'll never need her,Even though she's ...
pengen belajar animasipengen belajar fotografipeng...
today...

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kata orang cinta itu indah
cinta itu pahit

mereka juga bilang
cinta akan membunuhmu
menikammu dengan galah tajam
langsung ke rongga hatimu

cinta akan menenelantarkanmu
selagi kau terluka
karena terinjak-injak oleh ego dirinya

mereka juga pernah mengatakan
bahwa cinta itu buta
belum lagi bodoh dan gila

ada juga yang pernah berkata
bahwa cintalah yang membuat bumi berputar
namun banyak juga yang menganggap
itu semua klise belaka

tapi aku tak peduli
biarlah mereka terus bertentangan
tentang satu hal yang telah kuyakini
dengan segenap hatiku

bahwa
sebenarnya
menurutku
cinta itu adalah kamu

31/08/08 9:54 PM
[result of procrastination]

P.S: minal aidzin teman2! :)

P.P.S: i find that the title is kinda lame. care to find me another one? drop a tag if you do ;P

Labels: poems

yeah the title says it all. got mountanious of homeworks piling up. good God, help me. :P
so i'll just fill some quotes haha. it's riski's turn in my hall of shame this time haha. peace, ris.

quote(s) of the day!

mr. joel: what did you eat for breakfast today
riski: umm... spaghetti
class: *roll on the floor laughing*

riski: (to mr. joel) sir what's my future in economy?
mr. joel: ... economist.
class: *died of laughter*

omg, i really wish english class would last longer. haha.
oritey. gotta study eco.
cya!

how come i don't like it when you say her name? well, hope you're happy, though. i guess that's all that matters. :)

quote of the day
eugene: ugh, i hate it when no one laughs at my jokes.
me: roflmao

1. my dad went all the way to japan and he bought corkskrews and egg-cutters. yes don't question. he did bought be a cool hardrock shirt though. ;) love ya, dad!

2. i watched wall-e (which was a mistake coz now i still havent finished scarlet letter) and it's really good. has social criticism in it. yeah, again, don't question go see for yourself.

3. i still havent finished scarlet letter. yeah go figure.

4. i'm obsessed with making bracelets, one of the other million reasons which then reminds me of camp. i'm hollow again. yess, not the first time. :(

5. i love sarah dessen. so much i could give her a bear hug right now.

6. i just realised how sarah dessen's book really gives me a lot of insights on life. the rough patches, the imperfection and how to cope with it.

7. writer's block strikes again. i have these amazing ideas for my e.com stories yet it's not pouring itself on paper (or monitor for that matter). help.

8. i'm f**king tired.

9. i'm running out of things to say.

10. oh, god it's exam soon.

1. 17 AGUSTUS TAON EMPAT LIMAAAA!!
yaay. slamat hari jadi indonesiaaa. sebagaimanapun hancurnya konsitusi di indonesia... indonesia tetap tanah air gw dan gw cinta bangeeett sama negara ini. call me crazy, but i can't let it go. it's my country, my home and i'll love it forever and ever. :))

2. Putri Indonesia 2008
huhu, manda ga menaaang! :(
(yupp, amanda putri witdarmono dari dki3 itu temen gw hehe) walopun lolos ke sepuluh besar. keseeell. itu pertanyaan yang paling susah dari seluruh pertanyaan yg diajukan dan manda (walopun harus minta ngulang pertanyaannya) bisa jawab dengan baik, sistematis dan ga grogi sama skali. dan OMG DIA GA LOLOS??!! well the judges must be blind (or deaf for that matter) well anyways, manda menang putri pendidikan and i think it's the best title that suits her.

congrats mandaaa!! :)

3. Me and the Suitcase
have u ever had this certain attachment to something? it's as if you can't let it go, coz it's a part of you, or a part of a certain memory that you can't or won't shake off?

well i have one.

and it's that ginormous black suitcase of mine. which as of this moment is still sitting comfortably on the leg of my bed (since the day i got back from US, and that's umm 23rd july ;p ). it's been nearly a month since that suitcase is there. intact. well not exactly of course i took out the dirty laundry and stuff.

i know it seems crazy, but i like it. i like the fact that it's on the edge of my room, near my bed. i don't feel like taking it away. putting it in the back of my mom's closet (coz that's where all the suitcases go in case you were wondering which i assume you don't haha). i don't know why really.

well maybe it's the one thing that reminds me of camp and the whole USA trip. and along the journey, that suitcase is practically the most important thing of me (aside from my pasport of course which = my life!). without that suitcase i'd be lost and probly be on the verge of depression haha.

i find it to be a reminder, i guess, of that summer... that it's actually real and not just a fragment of my imagination. not just a lucid dream. it actually happened. coz i sometimes feels as if the camp was just a dream. a flash of events that comes up in my head for no apparent reason.

but it wasn't and the suitcase constantly remind me of it. the suitcase is something that i held on to from the start of the journey until the end. from when i was still in the awkward stage of camp until i'm crying my guts out to say goodbye. the suitcase was always there. never left my side (except for that one day when it got left in chicago).sure there are other things, the memory book (which constantly made me cry everytime i read it) and pictures (which i'll post up soon enough).

but it's mainly the suitcase. yeah.

well anyways, i think now is the point where i have to let it go.

and start to tell myself that the past summer was real. suitcase or no suitcase. it did happen and was the most wonderful thing ever. the suitcase was merely a virtual bridge that i created in the back of my head, that connect me to camp and that summer. anyways, what was i thinking? i'll always know that my summer camp was real... it was really stupid of me to ever think that it wasn't. coz now i realise that the memory have been embeded inside of me. a stain on a piece of white muslin... can't be shaken off...

now that's the hardest part. letting go. but it's a phase, right? one that each and everyone of us go through. like it or not.

yeah so maybe i'm a bit emotional right now. or rather philosophical (?). haha ok that's too much. :9

well anyways. gotta read scarlet letter. eight chapters to go! go nandra go!!

chao!

Dear BBC World News,

Wayang Kulit is NOT freakin' Malaysian okaaaayy??!!
Get your facts straight.

Sincerely yours,

Enraged Indonesian Viewer

i have anger management issues.

i'm not really in the mood of posting much today. my mood swing's swinging in. it's crazy i get mad for odd reasons. becoming more hateable each moment. gaah.

anyways things i'd like to talk about...

1. 2008 Beijing Olympic Games Opening Ceremony
was extremelly cooooool!!! it was AWESOMELY AMAZING!! i really can't put it in words coz it was just magnificent! it was problly the best opening ceremony! not that i've seen much but i bet it is!

wat's more amazing is that most of the performers are volunteers! all 14000 dancers, acrobats, musicians are volunteers. they're not doing it for money, but simply for the pride of their country. yeah that's wat i call nationalism, people! haha.

it's really amazing coz i saw how the world practically come together in a sportive competition :) kinda dissapointing to know that indonesians arent really enthusiastic about the olympics. i havent seen any ads or something of at least wishing our athletes good luck. of course the print media is big about it, but the people arent! it's just sad. well, i wish all our atheletes good luck and i'll support them all the way! :)

i dunno what else to talk about. i guess that's pretty much it. i'm tired really. it's not realy a good day... soo.... yeaaa...

:(

god natt!

i've restored my creativity. i wrote a poem. yay.
enjoy
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Labels: poems

school is time consuming. very very time consuming. it takes up 8 hours of my day and another extra 2 hours or more at home. it's crazy. i'm crazy. my brain's overloaded. it's exploding. garh.

anyways, i need to find a way to end procrastination. and i need it fast. it's cutting of my creativity level and i'm in the mood of being creative. my story's still stuck ever since before i left. no, must not happen again. the story must go on. but i need creativity and it's currently non-existant! aaaaaarrgh!!

oh my god. this is nuts. anyways, i don't see any point of conclusion here. it's just me complaining again. yeah, i don't advice you read this post. it'll make your day worst. and yes, my skeptical mode is on.

oh wth, i'm bummed. gnite people!

quote of the day (not that it happened today but it is hilarious haha)

alvie: i hate science!
me: you hate science? you hate science but you're taking double science?
alvie: yeah.
me: you are the most irrational person i've ever seen in the world!! (hysterical for no apparent reason)

haha. alvie my irrational friend. i still love you though vie, don't you worry. haha ;)