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it's nandra. they also call her nashz, the history of such name is way too long to elaborate in this little space. she's seventeen. she's a she. she lives a typical metropolitan lifestyle in the capital of Indonesia. she's currently in her senior year of high school, enduring the second and last year of IB Diploma Programme that's totally ruining her life slowly. but she thinks the whole suffering would give her some sort of advantage in the (scarily) near future. she's a CISVer and lovin' every bit of it. oh, she also very much enjoys mango juice, she'd even prefer it than OJ haha. and while we're at it, yes, she might be random from time to time. she wishes you'd be quite patient about it. :)

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hey, long time no post nih! hehe.
kali ini gw mo post sesuatu yg, well, it's been bothering me for quite a while.


jadi pas hari selasa, kita (temen2 gw dan gw sendiri) ngebahas tentang suatu issue. berhubung lagi gempar2nya *seorang selebritis yg beroknum C* (gw anti defamation people! haha figure it out urself), pertama2 kita ngomongin dia. kita ngomongin tentang film barunya dia, yg katanya ada dance2nya gt. padahal, menurut sumber yg cukup terpercaya, itu artis kagak bisa nari.. hehe. trus omongan itu berlanjut ke isu satu ini.


tmen gw nabila, tiba2 bilang
nabila: "it seems that if you're white (i.e. blasteran) you'll get fame so easily."
trus gw, sari sama filza langsung nimpalin.
sadly enough, statement dia bener.


gw sebel banget klo ngeliat iklan pemutih muka, yg klo cewenya kulitnya kecoklatan, cowonya nengok aja ngga mau. giliran itu cewe pake itu pemutih, itu cowo langsung tergila2.
HELLO??!! WHAT THE FUCK??!!!
jadi klo kulit kita sawo matang, kita jelek gitu?
jadi defenisi cewe cantik itu berkulit putih?
waw. sempit banget pikiran mereka.

nyadar ga sih kalo sekarang stereotype cewe cantik itu salah satunya berkulit putih dan kurus? and it really pisses me off how the media expose that stereotype! aargh. liat aja dimana2, di sinetron, iklan dll, jaraaaang bgt gw liat ada cewe yg kulitnya coklat.


sebagai cewe yg berkulit coklat, gw sih pede2 aja. gw ga pernah sekali pun nyoba untuk mutihin kulit gw. soooo for those insecure girls out there, don't be insecure. pede aja kali.
break the streotype!
gw tau, it's not an easy approach, but hey.
worth a shot.


ok, udh mulai menyimpang nih postnya haha. udh malem soalnya ;p
well, gnite people!

how long has it been since i made a post? haha. ;)
anyways, java jazz festival is coming! yaaay. jazz is coming to town! i love it when it's java jazz time. i'd be spending all night in jcc, just watching people perform and of course, enjoy the music! it would probably be a bonding time with my dad at the same time. he lives, eats, breathe jazz, haha (ok, slight exageration). but he loves jazz soooo much.
well, i don't love it as much as he do, but i do love music! ;)
sooooo currently my jazz mood is on. i've been listening to renee olstead and raul midon over and over again. haha. ;)
anyhows, i'm gonna watch on friday, 7 march and saturday, 8 march.
i wanaa watch renee olstead
bibus
ecoutez
raul midon!
at first i thought that there won't be much to see, since i have no idea who the other artists are.
BUT, then i browsed some of the artists and just fell in love with their music!
you guys should check out sara gazarek [link] and megan bowman [link]. out of the two, i like sara gazarek better. her music is so soothing. hope i can find the cd, coz limewire is just hopeless. haha.
i really really can't wait. except i just don't know who to watch it with. coz probably i won't be together with my dad. haha. so much for bonding time. haha. well, we'll see. xp

anyways, it's getting kinda late. ;p
bubye.

i'm not in my best mood today. everything just seems to be fucked up and iritating. but i digress on making a gloomy post today. ;)

sensasi (halah sensasi) yg lagi sering diomongin orang2 adalah ngga lain dan ngga bukan cinta laura dan logat ajaibnya itu. swt dah. suatu malam yg membosankan, nandra dan gino memutuskan untuk chatting dengan logat cinta laura! seru loh. beginilah jadinya:

gw: gw jg suka chengkorak2 gin
gino: gut2...
gw: syepatu saiya ada yang gambar chengkorak2 itu tau kan
gino: hooo ada ya
gw: yeah, itu syepatu favorite saiya
gino: kalo shaya
gw: gin kita chatting pake logat cinta laura yuuu
gw: yea kalau kamyu gmna
gino: bawa LAPTOP yg ada chengkorak2nya
gino: so ai ken du my homework
gino: but remember
gw: yea wat is it
gino: i dont know what's the meaning of kendala
gino: so ill ask my mom first
gino: Moooom
gw: kendala
gw: WHAT'S KENDALA
gino: what's kendalaaa??
gino: KAYAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH
gw: kamyu syuka myusic apa gino?
gw: kalau saya tidak suka yg pop pop gitchu
gino: hmm
gino: kalo saya sih
gino: ngga gitu suka ujhan
gino: bechyek
gino: ga ada ojhyek
gw: yeah
gino: menyebawlkan~
gw: saya sekarrrang sedang mendengarkan lagyu lagyu linkin park gitchu
gw: sama korn...
gw: itu loh yg di bakar bakar itu... <-- mulai lemot, dah malem soalnya.
gw: korn...
gino: z
gino: jagung bhakar??
gino: aduh
gino: jd pengen makan
gw: haha
gino: btr ah ambil otak2
gw: iya saya juga
gino: u won sam ochak2?
gw: *beneran ternyata*
gw: ahh saya tidack begitchu syuka ochak2
gw: it's spicy2 gitchu rite
gw: sya tidack begitu suka spicy foods yknow
gino: OTAK2 MANA ADA YG SPICY
gino: gila lo
gino: nyaingin kekurangpintarannya *diralat biar ngga ngerusak nama baek orang haha* cinta laura
gino: ar yu kreji?
gw: lho otak2 itu bumbunya bukannya pedes ya gin <-- odongnya keluar.
gino: kan ga harus pk bumbu
gw: soalnya kmaren gw makan di resto palembang pedes banget
gino: gw aja makannya ga pk bumbu
gino: tp ttp cihui
gw: YAWDA KAN CRITANYA CINTA LAURA KURANG PINTER!
gw: hahahah
gino: ooo
gino: gichu~
gw: iya begitchu
gw: gin, apa di rumah kamyu sekarang hujyan
gino: no..
gino: tp ada bekas bechyek
gw: ohh tapi di rumah tidak bocyor khan
gw: jadi di dalam rumah tidak bechyek2 gichu
gino: ngga lah...
gino: awas nan
gino: tar odong bneran

HAHA. i know ga penting bgt. sepertinya gw ga akan ceting pake logat cinta laura lagi. ntar odong beneran. HAHAHA.

i'm a freakin' hypocrite. i have all this stupid commitments in my head, yet i didn't commit to it. i didn't even strive for it.
sometimes i feel like a total total hypocrite, i say this but i do the other the next day. stupid, no? i tried, i tried and tried and tried to do better academically. i'm actually striving to be the top, well not the top just above average. i'm just so freaking tired of being ur average joe. i want more.

i'm dissapointed with myself lately. why is it so hard to hold on to your commitments? why is it so hard to tell yourself, GO. but i end up in this miserable, pathetic state of laziness that i can't ever shake off. it's just so freakin' stupid.

i'm losing faith in myself. i want to do so many things to improve myself, yet there's this little conscience deep inside me, that keeps on saying, "ah, ntar juga ngga akan lo kerjain." or "ah, you'll end up failing again, anyways." those kind of stupid phrases keeps on echoing and ringing in my head. i feel like screaming. i want to scream for that tiny conscience to freaking stop or i'll freaking screw them stupid!

arrrh. all this stupid negative vibe is ating away my positive side. but really, it's bothering me.
hmmmm. i need encouragement people. seriously. but then again, it should come from myself. but wat can i do with all this negative thoughts i have in my head.

trus skarang gw musti ngapaaiiiin??
mau gw apa ssiiiiihhh??
bayangin, gw mempertanyakan hal2 kayak gitu.
hhh. life's complicated. and i'm not even halfway through life.

tau ah. gw gak mau mikir berat2. capek. ngantuk. 2 hari lagi assessment bi. bisa gila gw. i should sleep. clear my mind. stare at the ceiling.

200th POST!
YEAH!

i've come a long way, haven't i? haha. i would've made a more inspiring or at least umm apa ya... lebih berisi.
but, i don't feel like writing such a post. aside from laziness it's kinda late. haha.
well, got nothing awe inspiring to tell though.
i finally watched Grey's Anatomy Season Four!!!
Seriously! aaaargh. finally!
it's soooo cool.
more affairs and bloodgushing surgeries. haha. tho i HATE blood and NEEDLES. but i enjoy the series very much. McSteamy and Alex never gets any hotter! aargh.
man!

sooo yeah. i enjoyed my time at home today. i didn't go out for since saturday. now i spose being at home makes me somehow claustrophobic. oh well.

hmmm. see it's not a constructive post.
but whatever! ;)

it's late.
gnite people!
:)

hey-lo! sbelom gw mulai...
happy chinese new year smua! gong xi fa cai! xin nian kuai le! ;)

soooo, berhubung hari ini hari kejepit and sekolah diliburin, gw memutuskan untuk merayakan ultah gw! yaaaay!! abis booking shabu nobu sama a private theatre di subtitles yg bertempatkan di darmawangsa square, semalem sebelomnya send invites and stuff... the party started! yeaaah. sari, filza, ariani, nabila, rama, gino, misyel and fajar came. yaaaay!
yaaa bkn party gila2an gitu sih, just lunch di shabu nobu.
which was SUPERB!
jadi pengen balik lagiii. hehe. love love love the dragon roll and marilyn monroll! haha.

abis membuat keributan dan chaos di shabu nobu, kita berlanjut ke subtitles. seperti yg filza dan gue duga semalem sebelumnya, the movie picking is gonna be disastrous aaaaand, IT WAS! garh. ;p
yg satu mau musical lah
yg satu horror lah
gino lagi mo nonton star wars!
but then we settled on the gift, genre-nya thriller.
haha right in between! pas bgt.

trus nonton deh. [minus rama and misyel tidaaaaaak! :( ]filmnya lumayan lah [trying to get BAD IMAGES out of my head! argh!], yg maen bagus2 cate blanchett, keanu reeves and katie holmes. where the ones among the actors.
harus gw kasih tau, nonton di subtitles tu seruuuu banget. haha.
ya namanya jg private theatre. serasa punya bioskop sendiri. lo mo ktawa2 triak2 foto2 loncat2 jg ga ada yg peduli. film tinggal pilih. mo popcorn pun ada. haha
jadi ya scremfest gitu di subtitles. triak sana triak sini, loncat sana loncat sini. hahahah. retard abis kita!
but it was a blaaaaast!! jadi pengen kesana lagiii! hahaha
tapi kayaknya serunya klo nonton film horror ato thriller gt deh. seru triak2! haha. but i spose anything will do. it's down to the company in the end! haha ;)

anywaaaaays... i had fun fun fun!
thankiu guys udh mo dateeeeng. thx for the prezzies toooo! and the cupcake [which i blew out in subtitles, total embarassment! haha]. btw, itu cupcake spertinya gw tinggal di resepsionis subtitles. wakaka. tau ah. huhu.

right. it's a very looooooong weekend ahead. well 2 days left. ngapain lagi yaaaa?
karaoke yuk, gin! :)
another crazy idea! xp

gnite people!
love love love!!

heyho.
hari ini gw ulangtahun! yaaay.
senangnyaaaa.

tapi nggak tau kenapa, pagi2 gw bangun, ga seecstatic dulu waktu masih umur 7 ato 8. hehe. well, now i'm 15. ;)
mungkin gw ga segitunya, karena udah ngerasa tua.
maybe not tua, tapi nambah dewasa. (cieeeh dewasaaa)
ya blom dewasa jg sih, cman secara kalo nambah umur, pasti orang expect lebih banyak dari kita. pasti mereka berharap kita lebih bertanggung jawab, rajin, sabar dll dsb dst.
ya ngga sih? hehe.
tapi mungkin itu kali ya konsekuensi nya bertambah tua. hyahaha.

hmm agak ngga mood nulis nih. banyak banget pe-er numpuk dan menunggu untuk dikerjakan. haha. dah malem lagi huhu.

gnite people! ;)

weekend gw is super duper extra tiring yet massively FUN! coz it's precamp time!! yaaays.
despite the flood, i managed to get to the campsite on time. ngomongin banjir, sabar yah. makanya, jangan suka buang sampah di kali. inilah akibatnya...

anyways, sabtu pagi, gw nyampe ke Berkat Anugerah Resort. begitu nyampe, registrasi, naro barang and get to work! ternyata, masih ada a bunch of stuff yg hrs diurusin. so gw, icha dan ninit get down to business. sementara itu trio tk sanur TELAT. tolong ya. huh. but we managed kok. haha.
belom opening aja, gw dah capek. haha. padahal gw cman ngasi engergizers sm game2 kecil buat member baru. tapi gatau capek bgtbgtbgt. mungkin karena kemarennya gw agak sakit kali ya. hmmmh.
but then the first day went by marvelously. the activities were carried out excellently. we even managed to finished lullaby on time. haha.
lalulalulalu... evaluasi trus berhubung tim acara telah merancang sebuah game yg amat sangat mutakhir... tapi belom pernah dimainin sama sekali(aka original! yeah. haha), kita harus mensimulasikan game tsb. daaaan alhasil, baru sampe kamar jam satu. huff. bener2 gw langsung tidur. no questions asked.

hari selanjutnya (yaitu hari ini), kebangun gara kiwi teriak2 dengan suara cemprengya itu (haha canda, kiw.) AYOOO WAKE UP TIME! BANGUN BANGUN! it was totally excruciating. haha. gausah pake toa kuping gw udah rusak denger dia triak2. haha. (skali lagi, canda kiw!)
walopun begitu. gw tetep ketinggalan flag time. haha parah aja lo nan.
gara kelamaan ngeringin rambut. hohoho
trussss game yg teramat sangat mutakhir itu akhirnya dimainkan. yays!
TAPI.
berhubung gw ga kebagian jaga permainan itu, i have to endure 2-seemingly-like-24-hours of minigames. triak sana triak sini. loncat sana loncat sini. goyang sana goyang sini. encok gw skarang. hehe.
tapi beneran lho, kaki gw sekarang sakit smua. mampus lah. hmmmph.

udah ah. cape nih. ngantuks. hoho.
eh eh ntar dulu ah...
hmmmm tadi mo ngomong apa yaaa? hehe

oia, gw ikut jasparc! yays! senang senang senang!
heheehe.

anyways, umm itu aja ah. cape. ngantuk.
i'm dreaming of dreamland. hoho.
ciao!