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it's nandra. they also call her nashz, the history of such name is way too long to elaborate in this little space. she's seventeen. she's a she. she lives a typical metropolitan lifestyle in the capital of Indonesia. she's currently in her senior year of high school, enduring the second and last year of IB Diploma Programme that's totally ruining her life slowly. but she thinks the whole suffering would give her some sort of advantage in the (scarily) near future. she's a CISVer and lovin' every bit of it. oh, she also very much enjoys mango juice, she'd even prefer it than OJ haha. and while we're at it, yes, she might be random from time to time. she wishes you'd be quite patient about it. :)

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last but not least...
endpoint.
yet another dilemma of choices
I SURVIVED IB!
missing feelings.
apparition.
reasons why i want summer
Even though I'll never need her,Even though she's ...
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waaaa udah lama yap gw ga nge-post apa2.. udah msk skul jadi homework datang menggunung. sdih bgt ga sieh.. i still hav to do my kumon nd dat art thing.. maless bgt.. udh gtu internet yg dsl ga jalan lagii.. nd i hav to use tis telkomnet thingg which is really really sloww and i cant take it anymore!! lamaaaaaa bgt maw buka blogger ajahh.. buseeeett dahh.. gman aindonesia mau majuu?? [lohh,, nyambung ga tuh??] tuh kan jadi ga nyambung, line internetnya lama sieh..!! [nah, tuh kan aneh lagii..]

aniiwayys my freeenn.. nandrasebelbangetsoalnyainternetdirumahlamaaabgt. so dat explains evrything doesnt it??

i think itu gambar gw banget.. coz my love has been swept away.. ohoho.. yasuwdahlah nandraaa!! move on move on..!! ohoho.. gw gi agak anehh nieh harii ini.. stress kbanyakan peer!! hhuhuhu.. sball..

okelahh gtu ajah capek akuu.. yuuu~

CIAO-
*nandra

inside of love-nada surf

Watching terrible tv, it kills all thought
Getting spacier than, an astronaut…
Making out with people, I hardly know or like
I can’t believe what I do, late at night

I wanna know what it’s like
On the inside of love
I’m standing at the gates
I see the beauty above

Only when we get to see, the aerial view
Will the patterns show, we’ll know what to do
I know the last page so well, I can’t read the first
So I just don’t start, it’s getting worse

I wanna know what it’s like
On the inside of love
I’m standing at the gates
I see the beauty above
I wanna know what it’s like
On the inside of love
I can’t find my way in
I try again and again

I’m on the outside of love
Always under or above
I can't find my way in
I try again and again

I'm on the outside of love
Always under or above
Must be a different view
To be a me with a you

I wanna know what its like
On the inside of love
I'm standing at the gates
I see the beauty above
I wanna know what its like
On the inside of love
Of course i’ll be alright
I just had a bad night
I had a bad night
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i also wanna know what it's like.. on the inside of love..
i agree dat it'll be a different view.. to be a me and a you..

*aku syg dia tapi syg dia ga tau klo aku syg dia*

i'm back to school already!! it's somewhere between a 'yayy!!' and 'boo!', coz i dont feel like going to school yet, but i'm missing my frens already!! there's tis first day syndrome in skool, where people hates their classes and just complain. my message to u guys, jalanin ajah, tis is ur last year in middle skool! live it! nanti juga kerasan koq di klas.. anak2nya mungkin gak seenak last year, tapi LO bisa bikin kelas itu lebih seru! ya, gak? okaiih? so don't complain all the time, it's not gonna change anything.. if u want a change it gotta start with YOU.. lagian mau complain sebanyak2nya greg doesnt let us change classes rite? sooo in conclusion: COMPLAINING ALL THE TIME IS JUST A PLAIN WASTE OF TIME AND ISN'T GONNA CHANGE ANYTHING!! aiyt?! ayoo dong, smangaat!! it's our last year in middle skool!! LIVE IT!! x)

speaking of which.. i'm in 9c!! wit cindy, mamad, sevira, della, danray, reuben and a whole bunch of other people!! Xp.. it's not so bad. mungkin tadi agak ga enak ajah coz masih lmayan bnyk yg blm masuk.. i'm okayy wit the class.. i'm just gonna enjoy it!! yayy!! xD.. duhh, can't believe i'm in year NINE.. yayy, i get to plan DANCE PARTIES!! i havta make a dance party.. ga taw gmana caranya!! harus harus harus *ayoo fie, qta berjuaaang!!*

ehh, gw blom crita ttg orientation dayy.. yea, it was quite fun.. me nd thania melted the icy-cold-antartic-like situation of the class.. hehe.. coz the kids were still shy gtu.. yahh, kyk pas gw di orientasi dulu lahh.. we played fruit salad, some name games and things lyke dat..

eh, tadi gw ke senayan city lowh.. keren2.. gila itu mall sieh.. lengkap bgt.. ada studio xxi, ada zara, ada TOPSHOP [yea, DAT topshop] and a whole lot more.. hehe, not as boring as ps.. hehe..
i've actually got loads of story to tell but i'm just too tired.. okayy then, c ya guys laterr!!

CIAO-

halowh.. todaaayy!! gw k ps nd pim!! haha.. gw jabanin dua2nya.. wit alx, agung*slmat yap gung!!* and mansya. qta nonton r.v di ps.. hbis itu bosaaan lalu ke pim dehh. ohoho..
r.v film nya lucu lowh.. hoho..nd mansya was IN LOVE with jojo *peace, man!* trus.. apa lagi yap? nothing much sieh. coz qta di ps cman makan doang di hotshots.. trus jalan2 ajah tanpa tujuan.. haha.. penggembara pim.. tanpa tujuan hohoho..

okaiih dehh.. i must go.. gotta sleep..
i havta be in skool at 7 tmrw.. orientation dayy!!

*CIAO-

hellowh my frenz!! god i can't belive FRANCE LOST!! it's all becoz of zidane..!! heyy dude, itu pala bwat nyundul bola, bkn orang!! gila ajah itu sieh.. hh.. oh, well!!

i don't reali hav a story to tell today. oyea, it's mom's bday today. yippee!! cakes cakes cakes!! i luv those cheese cakes from harvest!! yumm yumm.. specially those cheese cakes with loads of strawberries on them called the mighty STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE!!

yayy!! i'm going to PS wit mansya, agung and alx!! yayy!! i miss them so goddamn muchh!! ohoho..!! lav ya guys ohoho!!!

okaii den. gotta go now..
CIAO-

ps: lessons learnd from the "zidane" incident during the world cup finals: DON'T LET EMOTION TAKE IT OVERR!! [nice, huh]

heiyy. during the half-time of the italy-france match.. i wanna say GO FRANCE!! U MUST WIN!! go ZIZU!! HENRY!! RIBERY!!

anywayz.. i've been thinking.. maybe i shouldn't FORGET him. u noe, my crush.. gw ga harus ngelupain dia. tapi gw ga blh sediih krn gw ga bisa sama dia.. lagian kita masih tmenan kan?? so, mybe gw jalanin ajah. jadi gw ga akan ngelupain momen2 gw sama dia.. hoho..
cos those moments were just too wonderfull.. haha..

gotta go now..
bonne nuit evryone!!

WHY??!!
why is love so complicated?
why am i not happy?
why can't i forget him?
why can't i forget that NIGHT?
why can't i forget dat DANCE?
why can't i forget YOU??!!

[o9.o7.o6-2o:44]

if all of u r wandering why i wrote dat. is because i can't MOVE ON. i'm telling you, it is so friggin HARD to MOVE ON. because it seems dat every single minute of every day reminds me of HIM. how addicted i am to him. dammit. i've gotta try to move on.. coz it is HARDER than i thought it'll be.

and now, in front of the computer, i'm waiting. for him to IM me, SMS me or watever. and i don't know WHY on earth am i waiting for him!! dammit. shitt. arrghh.
*gotta stop swearingg..*

-PS: WAITING IS SUCH A BORING THING TO DO!! TRUST ME!

well, today.. haha.. yayy!! gw tadi ke waterboom. it was fun. walopun cuman ada prosotan doang.. yang membutuhkan perjuangan untuk naik. hoho. gila yaph? dats all dat i do today.. hehe.. kmren akhirnya gw nginep di rumah eyang nd nonton bola.. tp jam 3 ktiduran hoho. HA! jerman kalah.. senangnya akuu.. hehe..

btw.. i still can't forget him. i just can't get him out of my head. i know somehow i HAVE to. but i don't think i can do it. my fren said i don't HAVE to forget him. but if i don't i'll be heartbroken and sad FOREVER. dat can't happen. i've been listening to sad songs. but it made me realise dat i can't be down forever. here are the songs i've been listening..:

• MOVE ON-JET
• BEST I EVER HAD-VERTICAL HORIZON
• STANDING STILL-JEWEL
• WHEN IT ALL FALLS APART-THE VERONICAS
• ONLY ONE-YELLOWCARD
• THE MIDDLE-JIMMY EAT WORLD
  

yea, those are SAD songs. i know. oh, well.. life has it's own ups and downs. peaks and valleys. maybe God is making me explore the valley now. if it is His will, then i have to go thru it rite? wat else can i do?

for others who are also heart broken rite now, think about wat i just said. mungkin it will help kalo kalian mendekatkan diri juga sama Tuhan. iya gak?

*thx to all my frens for all the support. i lav u guys!*
CIAO-

omigod. i can't believe it.
damn. shitt. fukk
hav u ever had...
care bout someone..
so dearly
then suddenly they just..
VANISH.gone.
i'm hurt.BURNED.
dammit-

*heart.BURNED*

felt like a bird
soaring through the sky
when i danced with u

felt like a dolphin
swimming through the ocean
when we just danced
through the dancefloor

drained with the music
you're close to me
hearts beating fast
oh, i love this moment

felt like in the clouds
dancing with the music
all night long
just u and i