Monday, September 22, 2008 // 11:53 PM
it's crazy how a lot of times i felt like i'm searching for something, but that 'thing' is just... a blur. like i'm not sure
what it is i'm looking for. or maybe it's just too much, i can't make up my mind? i know, i'm still 15 and i should just live it. but it's inevitable. i mean, how could you not try to find a piece of a missing puzzle among these rubble?
i think i expect to much of myself. i'm so absorbed in the idea of being better or different, that i can't accept the fact that i'm just mediocre and mundane. i feel crazy. i mean, wtf, right? what's wrong with mundane? or is it just me? i really dont know.
anya's right, maybe we need johari window.
maybe that way i'll be able to... reconcile myself (?)
wtf.