Saturday, June 14, 2008 // 8:30 PM
here's what i think.
i think that i take things for granted.
and no, it's not good. not good at all.
i should make more effort. everything seems to be served in a silver plate for me and i don't like that. yes, it may seem good, you get things BAM just like that. u ask this and that to your parents, then you'll get that.
yeah, it's the goodlife and i should be thankful for that. but guess what, it didn't feel good inside... i really can't elaborate it in words (as does most the complicated feelings, yes, i'm a complicated person, and i accept that).
anyways, i just think that now that i'm 15 and two years to going to university, i should try to be more independent. maybe if i want something, i'll have to be the one to make an effort to get it. i wont ask for it. hmm. sounds like a resolution.
dunno how long the determination will stay though.
yes, call me a hypocrite. well i'll try not to.
i'm bummed. ciao.
<3